Saturday, September 28, 2013

What ancient gods have had given us?

Life thoughts:

Just a thought: What ancient gods have had given us?

            Hi guys. So I had written this topic, but after I met few people, that were interested in this kind of stuff, they helped me rewrite some parts of it. Generally this topic, would ponder about the essence of human nature, because at the beginnings of time, humans weren´t overflood by information, so mainly what they said was crossovers of subjective thinking of theirs, that could change the next generations... or isn´t it vice versa ? Let´s have a brief look on pantheons of some ancient cultures:

Anthropological gods... or the Big Greece party SHAMONE:
           As you can see at first sigh, The ancient Greece, or the Hellens, had gods that were rulling over
one thing at the time. It could be a some atribute from the nature or of a individual, but things also got complex over time, so let´s start at the beginning. At first, the ancient greeks didn´t have a single male figure as a god. They worshipped their gods by hanging sacrifices on trees, which represented them. You know, every god was a symbol for something so they didn´t believe in them as something real but transcendental. For example, one of the real ancient god, was Artemis,the goddes of nature and hunting, so they hang bows on her tree (I cannot remember which one was it) to please her, and give her favour to them. It is also believed that at the beggining of time, there was only one god, worshiped around the whole world known as Mother Nature. Single woman figure as a god. But times had changed and some woman figures developed masculine characterisitics, that over time transgendered them. 
             Keep in mind that they didn´t know about the world so well, so they were left on their own. So the whole pantheon can be taken as a generalized response of an indvidual to the world around them. They were aware of things what can do, so giving a nature atribute a human personality (which transforms into a body in every their allegory , later myth) is why they had gods like they had. They internal view was more like a free human being, which can choose what side of his can develop, and by then he can enter the hierarchy, which was created later. It was created because they realized that human being can have many sites, and by the style of life they had, it was necessary for them. Or as they thinked. The problems began when politics and economics got involved. Due to this point, the mythology was something like a personal development, but as everybody is a human, that lives in a society, the pantheon can not handle the hierarchy of society, because it could be destructive to it.
            Also it is true that they started to think that they can explain the whole world in this terms, but they weren´t aware of things that many scientist and philosophers had discovered later about subject itself, that is basically "we, the ones behind our eyes".
             It is known that Greek philosophy started from their mythology, many philosophers tried to find this breaking point, but at the end, they started to agreeing that it was just a continual spectrum that leaded to thinking. I think, the best view about how ancient Greeks understand their gods, was presented by Friedrich Nietszche. Basically he in his work The Birth of Tragedy based on his view on mythology of ancient greeks. He states that there are two principles (generally, not only in mythlogy of ancient Greece) which are Apollonian and DionysianApollo represents harmony, progress, clarity and logic, whereas Dionysus represents disorder, intoxication, emotion and ecstasy. They fight between each other in every (but not only) in human being, and thus making everything alive. Pretty much explanation why there is hierarchy in their mythology.

The "X-men" from Egypt
               So as you can "feel" from the previous part, the geographical mentality is a huge deal, even this day. Ancient Egyptians that lived on the sand and only water was mainly form the Nile, created pantheon at first that resemble to their needs, as in other politics. But here, the gods are something like archetypes of each person that can be. That´s why some of them had heads of animal, because their body was a symbol of what they represented, but with a huge difference, because their body also described the mythos, axiology and ethics behind them.
                 But throghout time, they changed their things about them, so we can say that the thinking, and they, as a symbol, developed. That´s the reason why "The Great Nine" and the "The Great Eight" should be understand differently and should be not put together as a comparison by any means. Yes, they have some same gods in them, but they aren´t what they were before. This concept was taken by Greece and mixed up to their mythology, and because of trade, politics and economy, they were even created "mutants" that could be used for diplomacy. Everybody agrees taht Greek mythology was a ground for European philosophy, but at the end, Egyptians also have their part in it. Even the father of philosophy in Europe, Thales, and many others, firstly studied in the Libraries of Alexandria, before they started to preach. Lastly, it can make you an impresion, that Egyptians loved to stereotype, but they tried to develop every side of a character of a person 100% focusing on it, and not looking on anything else. That leaded to gods, that ended up as a "point of view" on the world.

The Irish Garden
                    Comparing greek mythology with the irish one is like an allegory for diversification in
evolution. They both started with tree worshiping, but greeks instead, used trees as first altars for their gods. Irish were people of nature, andeven though they had their god figures, they show respect to nature in general. They set up their panteons with basics they respect, and then developed them. Every important happening in their mythology has something to do with trees. While in greece, trees later became just an atribute, the irish understanding in trees survived and even made into the Churches of northen countries by little. The trees have their significance also in other northern countries, like in Nordsmen, but Irish have the most tree-centered mythology the whole time. They had even hierarchy for them. The basics they settled for their pantheon was based on the life of individual, the tool he most used, so it wasn´t somethin trascendental and generalized like in others mythologies. I really recomend the book from Fred Hageneder, Ghost of trees. 

                    Lastly, for example, chinese mythology should by understand by heart not brain. They

live in a dangerous place, so they reflect on things that by them truly matter. It can give you snese of logic, but the best understanding can be achieved by heart and kindness. What is point of all of this? It´s not about the gods, or if they are good and bad, but it´s about thinking f early humans and their understanding. We often tell something to people, but it´s a mix of our opinion, mental state in the time, and also facts, so our conversations on daily basis are not pure, which makes a new insight on the paradox of liar. So gods give us thins that we have in ourselves all the time. No wonder that Hinu tale of great wisdom and ultimate true states, that it is hidden in us. But who wants to carefully dig into themself, while not destructing the empire of oursleves?

Friday, September 20, 2013


                     I really need to stop worry about you my dear, because it can hurt me more than I am from your... well... everybody has a moment. I am sure that you didn´t ment to do such things. I am assuming, that you are just "exploring" yourself, and everyone stucks sometimes on the one side that they are. At first I was worried that if you have enough friends, you know, after you send them to me thinking that I am alone, and I need a company. It was very nice from you, my dear, but now I see that you are a friendly person after all, and number of your little, cute helpers is counting. I just don´t like the word helpers that I used, my dear. I think they deserve a bit more noble name, because after all, they are quite smart, but still... there is so much for them to learn. Even you, my dear, aren´ the brightest star in the sky. Twinkle, twinkle little one.
                     Don´t worry about me, my dear, It wasn´t unapprieciated love for you, that was making me sad. It was just generousity, that you didn´t recognized. You know that I am a polite person, but also I am nice, too. Remember how I wrote you a message about that dance, that I have with your friends ? I generously save their lives... even release could be a gift. But without purpose it´s just a crime, so don´t warm your heart with a thought of being a saviour, because a saviour doesn´t hunt. Saviour saves, my dear, and you now that. You are just repressing it, and that´s making you confused, like a puppy on ice.
                      I know... we should get ourselves time out for a while, meet new people, start something new, but after allying with my friend, that is not quite pleasant, I must act, even if it concerns you. After you came after our dance, I was even worried, that you will now have nowhere to go. But I am glad that you still have a place where you can feel the warmth of acceptance, or even love, my dear, but I think you got little green-eyed on me. I know that you were in places where we experinced some things together, such funny times they were. I will cherish these memories with you.
                      But please don´t get it grow over your head to much, because at the end, you will have nothing. Be yourself, that´s what matters. By the time you understand this, I created a nostalgic photo for you, so you can reflect on this place in times of suffering, my dear, because I understand your loneliness. Isn´t it cute? I really do have a talent to take pictures, as I may say... remarkable talent. Hope you like it.

                          Oh... those memories I have with you, while starring on the picture. One may say that magic was involved, but we both know that there is not such thing. I must even named these meassage "Tick-Tock", because even I can here ticking of your, as others will say, biological clock my dear. Your hungry for love, and that´s why you are acting strange to me. I know that by "love" the exact explanation of these term for you is different. Because after all, we all are searching, my dear. But sometimes we mistaken our muse with love, too. I know you were there after my little dance with your friends, and I must tell you, don´t let Him tell you to ruin your places of your memories. He is quite... callous and rough to his allies. I am still hoping for you to chose the right path, not the simple one as you usually do. But than again, I´ll talk to you later, because at the end, I am an also generous person, and you my dear, needs help. I am not expecting you to understand yourself instantly, oh my gosh no. Patientce has been the key for centuries, and suprisingly, you didn´t understand it at all. As a generous person I am my dear, and ppolite too, click here for the first message from me, or here for the second. You see? I am not mad at you or dissapointed. I will even gladly help you next time... as always...

P.S.: I know that you wanted to go to that place, and by Him sending you, you was so joyful about it... but at the end, you had have missed one piece, my dear.

Saturday, September 14, 2013

How much willing are you to fight againts yourself?

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Just a thought: How much willing are you to fight againts yourself?
                Hi guys. I was really busy yesterday as I tweeted that I needed some time for the college
bureocracy, because once again, it is almost the beginning of the school year for universities. I had this topic prepared for upload for friday, but it just got deleted somehow, so I am rewriting and posting it on Saturday (for followers on Twitter, remember that I am in GMT: +1:00 zone). First of all, this topic was mostly philosophical, based on psychology, and it was a pure "theory". But I think that I should done it more practical for now, with some more practical events, because there are people out there, that may need help, so they could reflect on something, and be sure that they are not alone. Yes, it may sound "cheesy" and stuff, but consider it as a fact, because statistically it isn´t possible to have unique problems, because if people had those, even science could not make a progress, because through our differences we would hardly see the thruth... just to assure you. This disbelief is mainly spread, because of our imperfection to create good social connections. Even though this topic was firstly named "Are good people like a pignut?", and it was just a (psychological and philosophicalview on the situations of how we find people that we "click" with, but for now, I try to apply some experience that I have and I try to touch more topics than before. Read it objectively, and try to think about it. Also it may seem to you, that some of your problems aren´t yours at all, but keep in mind, that some of these words can act like an allegory for some troubles that you have, because at the end, stories are about the effect of message, even if they don´t have a message, the effect would still occur. Lastly, I am not generalizing all peoples problems to a one "sack", but you need to realize that at the end of our life, we will die alone, and nobody will die for us at the end, and may it sound too harsh as it sounds, it is the truth that some of us are dealing with it right now, and some of us will deal with it later, and no one will be spared. Even the most last thoughts or words of people that are dying are: "If I have done that/ If I was more like...". So let´s sit down and have a talk like people, that we are.

Fight the beast which you are
                   I know it is hard to think logical and causal, when emotions are clouding your mind. The eternal feeling that this mood you have would last forever, strikes like lightning unexpectly every time. But you remember the times, when every cloud shatered and you feel the happiness again or even release? This is the circle of life, you go up and down. Words are just wind from lungs, so what really affects you is you, the beast. At the cloudy mood, when you feel down you don´t even realize that you start to idolize others. Comparing, and analyzing is the case. And that´s wrong. As I said before, try to not compare because they are the same people as you. They see your body and movement on action you take, on words you speak, but at the end, the "observer" is behind their eyes, like you are in yourself. Everybody is lonely in their body, but at the same time we are all united. 
                  The other "cloud"  is your ego. Sometimes you don´t even realize that you are playing macho. Do you realize that you are only responding to your inner troubleness? If it wasn´t true, than how come we have psychiatrist and many more things of our modern world? Do you really think that troughout the history not even one person had that problem? Be kind to yourself, and that means, be honest to yourself. Don´t judge who you are, don´t use that tool that was given us to biologically diferentiate things (not persons, but really just stuff, our inteligence is the cause that we use tools to situation that aren´t corespondent to it), so we can know what is good for us.  Realize that, some of us have the gift of seeing things, but it also comes along with the curse of prejudice, directly connected to our unconscious part. And when this part is affected, it starts sendings waves that affect our other parts, like who we are, our behaviour, and our body (not only in a"visual and health" way). You can see that I didn´t mention personality, and this is because personality is just generalized definition of percieving us from the view of others, and tell me, as a human, you have only an one page in your soul? That´s why you shouldn´t trust test of personality completely (that are many on the internet), and rather start discovering yourself, because it is a shame to use only a quarter of the great soil for a beatifull garden.
                I don´t want to say to you that start something new, start going out and find new people, because that should be basics, and it IS the basics, for you. How do you think that Einstein felt, when he wanted to do something that he was interested in, and he ended up with an ordinary job at first place? Don´t use tools that are you, againts you. Forget about your ego that is pushing to some aim, and mainly don´t make it as your first and firm priority. The journey of life for you is about the story you make, the aims you achieve, are for others to see. We often get really confused, because we think that we would be happy if we get something that we want and people will be cheering at us, but many those that achieve something, realize that it wasn´t about the others at all. What they really wanted was cheering from themselves. Change your perpective of things, take the time to do it so. Learn to be patient, because many people lack of it. Youtube channel Soulpancake done many good videos, called The Flipside,  that make you realize things. And beside learning how to be patient ( mainly on yourself, and yes, you can be a "chilled" person, but it doesn´t mean that you are patient in true meaning of the term) you also need to learn realizing, before memorizing. Watch this video from them called Family business, and try to reflect in to the position of every person that is in it, every time you watch it again. Don´t try to reflect on everybody at the same time, because you would only get a mixed and confused massege. Just take your time to watch it. Realize that the persons that appear, are living their lives, before even appearing in the video. And every time you watch it, watch it till the end to have an objective perspective of people, and take time to think about it. Otherwise you are reading this without use, because the part of our lives when we realize something, is the part when we change and we achieve (or it just leads toour true happiness (either is temporal or not).

                     Some of us will think that this video is off the topic, but is it really? Realize, that everybody is having some backround behind them, and it is common for us to be blinded by it, as we haven´t enough blindfolds already. But that isn´t true. The only blindfold is ourselves, because as I stated before, we sometimes misuse some of our tools, mainly BECAUSE of something, because after all, it is our unconscious way to fix something in our lives, and at the same time, it is also calling for help. Be aware of yourself. Understand yourself. REALIZE yourself.
                     I had a friend once, that at the first glance you would say he is fun, outgoing and even charismatic. But when you get to know him more, he looked to you like a narcistic/egoistic, or even sociopathic "attention whore". He was trying to appear as the best and he tried to let you think of him that way, he even tried to supress your personal standing and status to be under his. He tried to manipulate people and take full of control of them, their lives, their actions, and even their minds. The truth of his actions was, that he had an abusive drunkard dad, and that was his way of trying to achieve peace around him and making a stable ground that every person needs. He failed to realize what he was doing, and mainly WHY he was doing such things. He was looking for safety and peace beyond his family, well, he tried to create it unconsciously with his friends, that many left him for this. But if he realized where the problem was, that his was becoming his dad, that he feared, the situation for him would change. By seeking attention and "worship", he forget who he was at the beginning. Many people are looking for inner security somewhere outside on (not in) other people, but think, it is reasonable to search such things, when everybody doesn´t even know the answer, that others are searching their whole lives, like we do? We are us at every beginning that we start.
                    For example, if you are in deppresion, because you are a single mother, that worries about how she feeds her children tommorow, did you realized that your kids don´t need your money? Food and stuff "needs" money, or more like, other people "need" money to give you things for others. There are many people that have lives like this, and they are thinking that they are alone, but they are not. You need to realize and than admitt your situation. You can ask other people nicely to help you out, but sometimes we mix up our pride with self-confidence, which slef-confidence is not a bad thing, but pride is. As for the single mother, life of her children depends on hers, and think about it, isn´t it selfish to depend on the opinions on others? Is it even selfish to depend on the opinions of others, not taking aspect of your current situation? You may say, that you need to be strong for them, but that is a lie. You need to be strong for yourself. Some of us get that "vibe" from the word "strong" as something that we must fight for, that it would take time, that we don´t have enough power for fighting to achieve this, or even when we achieve it, we can not hold it for too long. The problem is that we are already fighting. That dark emotion is just an alarm, and by supressing it or by choosing wrong solutions, it make us feel tired, and even it makes our minds more darker. The truth about the word "strong" , is that it is the word "normal" in disguise. Don´t fight your alarm, just be aware of it. 
                    The worse part is that we got distracted by actual problems sometimes, that some of them didn´t need even to be solved, because they are only a new coat that we builds up like a snow ball on the basic problem that we accepted as "something that happened we need t move on", or we just refuse it, or even forget it. And now as you can see, we are back at honesty to oursleves, we just completed the whole circle of dispair. You love someone and they don´t like you back? Why are you sad from it, even if you know they wouldn´t act like you imagine, and they wouldn´t fulfill your life? You are in denial that you are gay? Would fulfilling things that are expected from you make you happy like those people that are expecting something from you? Do you realize that day someday, or left you and you would be left with your life shaped by others? Would you be happy? Even if you are just forced to some situations, like take care of your elderly parents, or feeding your kids, it doesn´t mean that you should supress yourself, quite the contrary. 
                    Explore yourself, that´s when we are really growing up.

See ya next time ;)

Monday, September 9, 2013

Why homosexuality exist and why all that hate?

Life thoughts:

Just a thought: Why homosexuality exist and why all that hate?

(EDIT NOTE: Check the testosterone theory in this topic for update)      
                                 Hi guys. So I was wondering, if Darwin was right, why homosexual people exist?
 Is it some form of "cleaning up spieces from genes"? Or a new form of Altruism or Egocentrism or something else? It´s even a new form of something? So I decided to take a deep look into this topic, ponder about some theories and take a look on the hating principle or mechanism that is around the world.

Brief introduction: 
(yes, there are people out there, that still didn´t know what is homosexuality)
                           Homosexuality is romantic attraction, sexual attraction or sexual behavior between members of the same sex or gender. As an orientation, homosexuality refers to "an enduring pattern of or disposition to experience sexual, affectionate, or romantic attractions" primarily or exclusively to people of the same sex. "It also refers to an individual's sense of personal and social identity based on those attractions, behaviors expressing them, and membership in a community of others who share them. Also sexuality as itself is viewed more like a spectrum than something exactly defined. There are many theories out there why homosexuality occures, but from my personal opinion, there is no only the one true answer to it, as because human nature is complex and even we (Human psychology and neurology mainly) are studying ourselves wrong as I stated in my previous topic "Is Déjà vu based on the same mechanics as prophecies themselves?". 
Evolution  is "Cleaning us Up" ?
                               This theory suggest that it occurs in species because ,as homosexuals can not reproduce naturally, to put to an end the entire genetic information of one indvidual and his line of ancestors. Some suggest that this is because of overpopulation, or because of "dumping out" some genes that the individual has. This theory is the main domian of some pantheist or panentheist that slightly or strongly (only few are in the middle as I know) agree with evolution
                                 My opinion is, that proposing such a theory would mean that evolution is linear and determined, or even planned, but I think it´s not. People are linking things that seem to be logcially linked, but they forget that world is based on causality. And yes, there is distinction between logic and causality, because logic is above the other thing, while causality is more graunded and only takes steps from A to B to C and so on. Logic is more like  a free bird because it can see why A leads to B, but also sees why X1 leads to X2, and also sees similiarities between those two groups, while causality is like an ant, only calculating with A and B to make C, and it dosen´t bothers with other things.
                                  What I wanted to say, that evolution is rolling dices, and applies new genome whenever is not deadly to indvidual. Those changes aren´t appearing slowly, like tuning up opacity on photoshop, but they appear instantly on indvidual, and than the change appear sometimes (or not), on his grandchildren, until it´s statiscaly more probable that the change genome would appear more and more, until it´s start to appearing every time. So as you can see, homosexuality is not a respond from evolution, because evolution as a process, is adaptating future descendants of an indvidual on the surroundings around him. Some people say that homosexuality is a causality thing because of society, but than again, people did not decided to be gay, or they weren´t forced by psychology or laws into it. They began being gay already before birth, as studies are inclining.
                                     It´s more probable for evolution that it would destroy genders, and make everybody an hermafrodit, than making a such thing as "cleaning up". If you look at it statistically, there are more women than men and men are slightly becoming an exctinct "spieces"so I think that evolution will step in here. People even need to realize that evolution at itself doesn´t exist, because it is our biological response, and message, for future generations. So evolution is part of us.
                                     If this theory even was true, consider one fact. Homosexuals can not reproduce naturally, but we as a human race, we developed genetic enginering, so it became possible for homosexuals to have kids. We did it because of our inteligence which derives from our consciousness, which "nature" or evolution, gave us, too. So at the end, it is a battle between inteligence and"nature"? No. Because we are the nature, like heart and liver are our organs which are basically "us"Life has this basic dogma of survival, and anything else doesn´t matter. Inteligence is an another "non-vegetative way", to support vegetative side of an individual for survival, so they aren´t againts each other, because if they would, it would be destructive for an indvidual. I don´t want to turn it into a pure philosophy, so I stop here, before we even try to figure out the meaning of life. I Kant explain that. :D (inside joke for philosophers, that´s why Siri on iPhones answers like that if you ask her what is the meaning of life, sometimes she answers 42, as reference to a novel and movie "Hitchhikers guide through galaxy", litteral translation from slovak language by  the way, so in USA and around the globe the name could be different.)
                                       Againts this theory is the fact that scientist couldn´t discover the "gay gene". There was a theory about "sneaky gene" that when young boys were raped, they become more likely homosexually orientated in their adulthood. But because of no evidence of some sort of gene, they started to look at psychology. This "sneaky gene" theory falls on the fact, that it doesn´t explain lesbians, as many theories about homosexuality. If look on it psychologically, it occurs logical for us, that maybe this varriant is possible, but as said, it doesn´t explain lesbians, because this phenomena didn´t occured in raped girls by womans, and even some of the boys only had psychological trauma, similiar to kids, that switched genders by some mad doctor in the USA. Couldn´t find it on the internet, so, search for yourself (Update: youtube channel alltimes10s mentions one of them in ths video "10 disturbing child experiments" at 2:15 ). All I know, that some of them even developed schizophrenia, and every child had an anger problem of some sort, later some of them commit suicide. There may be some sort of "Psychologicall gay/lesbian", but it would be explained further down in this topic.
                                         Some scientist claims that an unused gene will perform itself in other way. As fact, our genome structeres our characteristic, and some of our abilities. Because of life of individual, the original genome slightly transformes even by new abilities we learn throughout the life, or by the change of our surroundings. Epigenetics  claim that this fact may be slightly true. The genome of parents is passed down on their children, but the "tags" that every gene has, to determine what is for, are "torn" down before the descendant of the individual is created. But some of them are strongly adjoint to the gene so they pass on descendant instantly. If you for example, drink coffe your whole life at 8am every day, your child would have a disposition for coffe addiction, or if you go for jogging every day, your child will have a strong structure of muscles, so homosexuality is based on some unused disposition. What I want to say that they fail to realize (from here, this is my opinion), that there are many types of genomes, and I am not talking about mitochondrial genome and other stuff like that. If you look into the nucleus of a cell of a human body you know that you would find the information of how to build the whole human body, and it doesn´t depend of what type of cell with nucleus you have. It´s because the "blueprints" are about the organelles of a basic cell, with addition how to diffirenciate by the type of cell, wheter is a bone, muscle, tissue, neuron, or, skin cell
                                          Those blueprints didn´t have a gene about "how coffe would taste to you"  as a whole information. Instead that information is transcirbed about how many proteins and enzymes was needed during your life for digesting coffe, and what organelles were over used, so the next generation could "survive" a such thing. By reproduction as a whole body of an individual, the genital cells, copy the "blueprints"  of other cells in your body and make a sex cell. So the copied information is about the structure of the body and it´s abilities to survive, not romantic affection because it´s not "biological mechanics". Yes, affection can be fatal for survival, but it´s not a purely genetically determined thing, and at the end and it´s a hormonal response, based on us as something beyond body instincs. Because if there would be a body instinct for having kids, than it would be to found in our unconscious part of brain, which is like a goverment or CEO for all of our body cells to function in harmony with each other. But because, we have an affection for someone based on hormonal reaction form our cells, it dosen´ explain why young homosexuals are often confused, where they should be assured from the begining who they are and what they like, because the "blueprints" are exact, and didn´t need to be externally assured later by society or something else. So I say that being gay/lesbian is not a genetic thing, because genes are more like designers of us as products. Even abilities we have gain from our parents, is just a design of a part of a brain or other part of our body. So even having kids is not a manufacturing thing of evolution but something beyond consciousness and unconsciousness. And yes, I am preapered to be burned alive, or making laugh of me because I am contradicting Freud, but fuck it. Copernicus beat down Ptolemy, and after they burned him alive, everyone was like: "Mah baaaaad." If you want to know more about Epigenetics, click here, or watch the video bellow, done by Hank Green, from youtube channel scishow

                                         Some scientist came with and idea, that homosexuality is an Altruism thing. Scientist discovered that some male penguins often become life-partners, and they find a female, only to infertilize her, and then they raise their child with their male partner. I often use this fact for my theory way before, this fact was even discovered, that until we define history of consciousness and how what it is itself, we cannot answer questions like: Why homosexuality exist? Is there a free will? Is there a soul? When and how exactly human fetus starts thinking?... and so on. For the record, I am not saying that being gay is a choice. I am saying that everything that works is based on causality, not logic, and causality as itself needs a stable, unchangeable ground that can work on. So homosexuality and even sexuality itself, is in my opinion, derived from the same "ground beyond unconsciousness" as consciousness itself, at the same time, not deriving each other, just existing side by side, only changing the "ground" they are based on equally. But still what is the mechanical cause, if there´s any?

Antibodies theory:
                                               Some scientist based on the fact that we all start as girls before we are born. So the theory goes, that when the penis develops, mothers body starts to create antibodies, because the penis of the fetus is an artificial object for her body. So the stronger the antibodies, the greater the chance that the unborn son would become gay. They based on the fact that the latest sons have higher chance of being gay, and bonus percentage is for having many older sisters. I personally am not convinced that this theory is true, because as a unconventional personality, I like when theories explain more than one thing, because it is probable that the theory can be true. First of all, this theory doesn´t explain lesbians. Second of all, as I stressed in my previous topic "Can be personality of your future child be seen on behaviour of it´s pregnant mother?" There is a strange connection, or a bond between the pregnant mother and her future child, and if the antibodies theory was true, than it would violate the basic Darwin rule for survival of spieces. I think that this theory can be possible, as there are many factors from biology, (many theories that aren´ true are possible, because natur doesn´t have a definition, but a spectrum of posibilites, because if not, there wouldn´t be quantum physics for example), but not ultimately true.

Testosterone theory: (UPDATE: New paper published by Neuroscience Research Techniques suggests that because of recent findings, this theory may be true, check it out here
                                                  If some of these theories will become true, I will bet my money on this one, if I am wrong about what I just wrote above the Hanks video. Some scientist based on the fact that for develping a man fetus, she needs testosterone. The thing is, that testosterone needs to be absorbed by body of fetus, and also it´s brain. If there is a deficit in absorbtion of Testosterone, the fetus woul look more feminime, but it could be heterosexual, or be more masculine but being gay, and you can figure out the rest posibilities for yourself. This theory even explaines why some of the women are lesbians. But than once again, scientist are always blindfolded by their field of study. If I am wrong with what I wrote above Hanks video, the "problem" could be in Testicles and development of sperm, and I am not trying to be feminist here. The study of possibility of being gay concernes mainly around development of fetus, so automatically by logic, the causes are in the pregnant mother. But she isn´t the only one that caused pregnancy, so what I am saying that becoming gay can be "done" by various ways, or because of both parents or only the male part (because studies haven´t shown absolute evidence that the mothers are the cause, though it even isn´t explained that if the heterosexuality isn´t a deviantion, because it´s logical, but once again, causality is actuall to this world, not logic ), but still, if I am wrong.

Parts of individuals sexuality:
                                                      This video was also done by Hank Green, on youtube channel vlogbrothers, click here,or watch it bellow:

Problems of bisexuals:
                                                        As you can see in this video, human sexuality is complicated. Therefore the hating on bisexuals from heterosexuals and homosexuals is unreasonable and ironic from the gays/lesbian part, because they say being gay isn´t a choice, but they want bisexuals to decide. As you can see in the video, there is a difference between identifing yourself, your sex, your romantic behaviour, and inclination. Bisexuals are often misleaded by their inclination because at early stages of life they can not fully decide who they are because of it. The pressure form media and society is making them even more confused, because of hurry to find out where they belong. They often feel like traitors or monsters sometimes, but at the end they try to use to it, but because there is poor education for public about them, they often have a dramatic sexual life.

Psychological gay/lesbian:
                                                         Yes, even those poor souls exist and are the main evidence for churches and religions that being gay is a choice, but they don´t do this on purpose. A psychological gay/lesbian is a person that had some trauma in their lives, and that made them think they are homosexuals. After brief sittings with psychologist or psychiatrist, they often realize they are not homosexual at all. Mainly are those people with a parental trauma, or relationship trauma. They think that they are gay/lesbian, but they are confused by the feeling for being wanted and to belong in some group. They may say to themselves (as for men) that they enjoy recieving in sex, but they couldn´t have orgasm not even if they become tops. There are many ways how to solve the agony, but it is different for every individual.

Hating "the different":
                                                            So, I am not going to write about the things that people mainly say to homosexual people like: "It´s againts nature/God.", because it was spoken before. I am going to give you the prespective of the goverment so you can see why there is a "problem", and no, I am not going to write about "insufiency (a.k.a. no children)" of homosexual  marriage, because it was also spoken before. 
                                                             The problems are ethics and yes, prejudice. As in a homosexual couple you don´t have that bond of having your own children that is even defined by law, and so nothing could make you "tamed". You can freely have many sexual partners without a risk of having a child. Also you are the risk of spreading the disease as nohing is "taming" you. Goverment doesn´t look on milion people individually, but as a statistic number. They want to have a fair play, so because they are feared of the consequences of homosexual marriages, they didn´t want to legalize it, if they think that some individuals (statistically) could be a threat for society. The traditions of marriage are something like moral pillars, that guarance of safety and prosperity of society, and if they fail, they have atleast a new member to the world, that can work and pay bills. After all (as they think), gay marriage can suck out money from public, because of non-having child, but taking insurances, fringe benefit and so on. The Goverment also needs to keep calm their population, so allowing the gay marriage by the fact that there will be rebelion from non-gay people, it isn´t a good idea. Also they need to have disiplinned population, and by allowing it it would cause moral destruction, as they think. So the main reason for them is not only the "fear of turning gay" as some of heterosexuals think, but also economy and tradition, but by the statistics, it can not affect it all, because there soooo many variables. So the hate is intetional and artificially created at the begining, on the principle as I described in my previous topic: "Does art by confroting human securities creating "haters" and thus sacrifices it general meaning and it understanding?", and then when the "hate" catches up, it becomes like a forest fire. So hating on homosexuals, and even though basically hating, is psychologically proved as a defense mechanism. Solution to it? Patience.

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Oh, you are so silly...

Creepypasta time:

Oh, you are so silly...

...yes you are, my dear, if you can not remember what I said to you before, click here, and don´t be ashamed, everyone makes mistakes, even you my dearest friend.

                            I am pleased that you still care about what I said. It became a virtue you know? This cruel pathetic world doesn´t offers such things as true friendship. But after all, I am sad. You my friend, was only one that I trusted, and at the end... you failed me. I know that you made better friends than I am, my dear. He made you his puppet my dear, and you didn´t listen to the warning that I have given you. He darked your mind. So I must to act. Please forgive me for unconvenience that I did to you, but after all, it was a wonderfull lesson. At least you will understand by some time, later. 
                              Say to your helpers that some things, they can´t handle on their own, even if they come to me prepared, and many by counting. I don´t have so much tea for them to serve. At least they should introduce themselves first, but I am not even mad, I know that you have manners of your ways, so why I should be expecting them to have good manners, too.  At least I am not worrying about you anymore, and I know that you are happy there, where you are. Your little helpers are quite funny, you know ? When they come to me, they wanted to dance. It was such a jolly time, with them, but we were little... caddish, as I may say. They had some temperament moves, that I made me impressed. Did you teach them how to dance ,my dear? Because one of them reminded me of you when we first met. At least I had fun, and I am glad that you have around such people as them. Sometimes, you truly have a good taste in people. Sorry that they have left us, but even they had a jolly dance, it is rude from them to coming uninvited, and as you know, I am a polite person. But don´t be sad, no one knows they were here, and they almost reconstructed the mess they made. Just look at the picture that I took for you, my darling...

                                         Even though I have feelings for you, they must be suffocated. I am really sad that you didn´t feel about me the same way. Now I understand. You are a free butterfly, roaming through the skies, collecting little dandelions through out the way. I saw videos from your friends that you play with, and I am glad that you have them, my dear. Life would be such a grey-ish place to be without them, my dear. Trust me they want you to not follow a narrow path. Be nice to them, please for your own sake.  But I know that I am not your friend no more... at least when you returned, you should said goodbye to me. I know that there somewhere, in the deepest parts of you, am I to be found. But I understand that you are His now. I am not sorry that you came to collect your friends that visited me, and you have to left alone. As I said, it was a wonderfull lesson to you. But I understand, trust me I understand. I love memories you know, so after you left me, this would be my reminder of you, my darling. You have a cute little paw, as I once said to you, you know? Don´t worry about me I´ll be fine. Hope you like this picture of your paw that you made, my dear...

You were always artistic, my friend. I can not understand how that you turned concrete into a hand. I am quite impressed, you left me a wonderfull, artistic memory you know? I always said that there is reason why we meet some persons, my friend. 
                                                  I am sure that you are wondering, that how I know you were somewhere around me. Well, I have powerfull friends too, my friend, as I said before. But you never listened. That is a quite of a shame, you know? But I still like you anyway, my dear, after all you did to me. Don´t worry my dear, after all you didn´t need to watch me after all, I assured that we don´t loose contact, even we won´t never met again. I can say that they are better persons, than your little helpers you know? They don´t make me trouble, but it is true that they aren´t that funny as friends of yours. They are little shy, whispering things, hiding in trees and so on. You will be a great friend to them, you know? But they hate you, my dear, but don´t be sad, there are plenty of fish in the sea.
                                                 I just want to to say that, whenever you will feel alone, remind yourself that I am always with you, because now,  my little helpers are watching you, my friend. I took a funny picture of them messing around, but maybe you cannot spot them, because they hate you after all. Only thing that is holding them from freeing your little cute soul is my presence, my dear. But atleast they look funny aren´t they?...

P.S.: Hope you have some helpers help, because otherv̢̱ị̦̼͉͠͝s̰̬̘͟e̫̗̗̟͠,̢̯̟̦̱͞ ͔̭̩̻͚͘͟t͏̪̱͠h͙̗̖͕̠̱e͢͏̻̼̝̻̘r̪̩̝̼̣̠͈̗e͓̞̦͢ ͝͏̠̥̞͓̞͜i͖̼̤̕s̱̞̖̰ ̵̡̝̥͜n̨͎̫͝ó̸̷̺̹ ̷̤͘o͈̪͓̗̟̻͇n̷̜̞̲̠͇̬̰e̛̞̗̲̞͜ ̵̸̜͉̕t̮͚̩͙̺͘͟o̤̻͈̹ ̠̭̣̀g̙̹͎͙̱̭͍i̢͉͕͉͇̤͢͠v̲̣̟̲̳e͟҉̜̝̩̯̥͕ ̴̭͎̰̹͙͙̦ͅy̶̹͙͈̠͢͝o̴̶̰͔͞u̶̝͍͞͞ ̩̪̬͇̠m̺y̢̧̘ ̤̮͡m҉̬e̹͇̼̫̲̪̞s̖s͎̟̣̫̮̦͎͜͠ͅą̬͉͓̕g̸̛͖̗̞̳̦̝̞͔e͖̻̥̪̪͓ͅ.̸̧̻͓̹͓̖̖̼ͅ.̸̗̺̝̻͎̥̪̲͝͝.͡͏̩͓͇̞͙

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Can be personality of your future child be seen on behaviour of it´s pregnant mother?

Life thoughts:

Just a thought: Can be personality of your future child be seen
on behaviour of it´s pregnant mother?

                 Hi guys. So I was wondering about this quote by René Descartes Click his name if you want to know who he was, I am lazy today for a "Brief Introduction" as I am doing it on previous topics of my blog ): 
"Cogito, ergo sum."
                ... which from Latin means, "I think, therefore I am.". But let me get it straight. This quote was firstly known as "Dubito, ergo sum.". "Dubito" means "to question". What he was saying was, that our only evidence, that we exist, and we are learning true stuff, not illusions,  is only based on the fact, that we can not question the fact, that we can question anything. So thinking became our proof that we exist, and the quote transformed later in his writing in the form that can be seen above. QUESTIONCEPTION... sorta. I think his face was like this when he was thinking abou it. :D Bonus points for those, who know what this meme represents.

                  I know, you might be thinking, that how the hell does this thing have something to do with babies and pregnancy ? So let me explain in it to you.
                 René by this quote turned the world upside down, because if he didn´t did that, we will be explaining that the cause of nuclear reaction is because of God, for example. The premises he used to end up with this quote, also showed that we are born with some ideas that make up our personality, behaviour and it also indicated what person we will become and how our future will be like. Also there were some people that disagreed with him like John Locke for example. But from our perspective of modern world looking back on his era, we can ponder about it for a while, because maybe he was had on his mind reflexes that every baby mammal has. The truth is that if you consider that fact, and you look on pregnancy of women, something can be true about this. So maybe there was some misunderstanding from Johns part, by the way. 
                  Consider for yourselves, that hormonal imbalance in pregnant women changes personality, but also our "moods" our neural/hormonal responses to situations, and even some neuron connections use hormones. So by this way of thinking, the brain development of a baby can affect mother and vice versa. If we have to drag Darwin into this, it becames logical that mother, as for her basic individual instict for survival and survival of our kind, should know about the development of her baby (at least unconsciously), and therefore, she should know what the baby needs for development are and at what stage of "growing" is. (yes, I am talking about "crazy pregnant tastes in food" and "mood changes")
                   This fact is also supported by basic human misunderstang in the fields of discovery. Sometimes if we look back from our modern era, we can find in our past some of the todays science facts, but in some sort of distorted or allegoricly explained form.

What moms have to say about this:
                     You know that theory is always cute, but the real life is about something else. I am a man so imagining into a position of pregnant woman is pure fantasy. I mean, you need a medal for this ladies, for at least what I heard from some of you.

                           I asked few moms, which have older children enough to say what kind of personality they have. They pretty much confirmed what I say above. For example, one mom said that she was nervous, sometimes hyperactive, and that she had pickles and ketchup for breakfast, and she couldn´t stand the aroma of meat during pregnancy. Her child now, is hyperactive and alwasy eats only vegetables, ketchup and doesn´t like really meat. She was even very likely to laugh more, and her child was often laughing  when it was a still baby.
                            The other one told me that she was feeling like she wasn´t even pregnant at all, and her child is now calm, mostly quiet, but he can be a little devil junior sometimes. She also told me, that this was her 3rd child so it is possible, that the more kids you have, the less troubled pregnancy you have, because body becomes less sensitive.
                             Rest of the responses to my questions were pretty similiar. But I also disover that the "pregnancy things" for them, like change of mood and those tastes in food, started around the 8th week of pregnancy, which brain of fetus started to develop. You can look up this site if you have some questions, just click here. I also used it for this blog, because I am currently at home and my University Library is in another town, so I must go with that.
                              I know that this ending didn´t bring more information, but the responses were almost the same as those two above. So question for the ladies, tell me, how was your pregnancy?  Is your child acting like you were when you were pregnant? When was the first time you feel the baby moving, or it´s presence as like you feel it listens to you? Let´s start the discusion.

See ya next time ;).

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Is Déjà vu based on the same system as prophecies themselves?

Life thoughts:

Just a thought: Is Déjà vu based on the same mechanics as prophecies themselves?

                        Hi guys. So I was thinking, about human nature and the phenomenon, de javu. Here are my thoughts about it.

Brief introduction:
Déjà vu, from French, literally "already seen", is the phenomenon of having the strong sensation that an event or experience currently being experienced has been experienced in the past, whether it has actually happened or not. Also there similiar phenomenons, for example: 
Jamais vu (from French, meaning "never seen") is a term in psychology which is used to describe any familiar situation which is not recognized by the observer. Often described as the opposite of déjà vu, jamais vu involves a sense of eeriness and the observer's impression of seeing the situation for the first time, despite rationally knowing that he or she has been in the situation before. Jamais vu is more commonly explained as when a person momentarily does not recognize a word, person, or place that they already know. Jamais vu is sometimes associated with certain types of aphasia, amnesia, and epilepsy.
Presque vu (from French, meaning "almost seen") is the sensation of being on the brink of an epiphany. Often very disorienting and distracting, presque vu rarely leads to an actual breakthrough. Frequently, one experiencing presque vu will say that they have something "on the tip of my tongue".
Déjà entendu, (literally "already heard") is the experience of feeling sure that one has already heard something, even though the exact details are uncertain or were perhaps imagined.
As you can see, they are very similiar, and all of them have something to do with memory and senses. But aren´t they just a, like I like to call, "brain problem" ?

              The explanation of Déjà vu vary. Youtube channel Ted Ed made a video "What is Déjà vu? What is Déjà vu? - Michael Molina" about this phenomenon, which proposes theories about what can cause such thing. 

                         Also, same thing was done by youtube channel Vsauce, they also made a video "What is Déjà vu ?", where they looked on the phenomenon more biologically.

My thoughts:
                           I personally think, that this phenomenon is pure psychological and just give me a second to explain it to you, why I think about it this way. I think that study of this phenomenon is not following the Copernician Revolution, which basically says that the "subjects "moves" around the object and not vice versa". As for studying humans, or their parts, we need to study "the object" as ourselves (some kind of subject-subject, not subject-object level), because "it" is like us, and thus, we should not forget about Darwin and Freud as in first place, because measurments of us are interpreted by us, with our flaws and our "idols" (from philosophy of Francis Bacon in his work New Organon) and thus interpreting brain that had a personality with it´s flaws and idols, is doubling the risk of wrong results. The descriptions of mechanical physics is independent form human nature and they are same for all of us, but studying such thing as Déjà vu is entering the fields of each ones personality that aren´t the same for everyone. From the physical prespective the neuron connections of the indviduals brain are unique for each of us, thus causes for Déjà vu can be physically various and by studying brain we are standing on the borderline with things like "soul" and "conscience" and even "free will" . That´s why I even think that neurology shouldn´t be a sub-field of anatomy but something independent, even though it´s an another study of an internal organ. 
                            For example, define "prophecy". It is an ordinary statement that is not true nor false. But psychologically, we humans have that strange "vibration" from it, as some kind of fear or expectation that it can happened. The prophecy itself is just an information created by humans and transcribed into language, so by itself, it can not do nothing to us, but the people can change because of it. But we defined it, because we created the term prophecy, and looking back on history, we "experienced" that they can become true, even they are ilogical and out of the law of causality. But still if the prophecy became true, we suddenly have that feeling like it was true all the time, and thus if you compare the feelings of the fullfilled prophecy and Déjà vu, they are the same, because of the natural build-in feeling of stress from a threath . Funny thing is that I recently heard on slovak news that scientist claim that Déjà vu is caused by hormonal imbalance in Hypothalamus, and hypothalamus is also know as "door to consciousness". 
                              Our brain is recording, but at the same time analyzing what it sees, so I think that the problem is in awareness. So let´s say that brain analyzes and predicts what´s going to happen quicker than it is actually happening, thus creating the feeling of  Déjà vu. It may also explain why this phenomenon is subconscious,  and this statement is supported even by psychological percieving of time (basically when you are happy, time goes faster and it goes slower when you are feeling down).
                               Think about it. Both videos talk about eyes, which are the main tool for our awareness, but would you without any senses still have that feeling of Déjà vu 

See ya next time ;).

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Does art by confroting human securities creating "haters" and thus sacrifices it general meaning and it understanding?

Youtube thoughts:

Just a thought: Does art by confroting human securities creating "haters" and thus sacrifices it general meaning and it understanding?

                              Hi guys. Sorry for the title, but I had no idea how to formulate it better. I know that I am late on this, so you can call me "slowpoke" on this one, but it´s because I totally forgot about this video until now. This video was done by youtube channel GARDNERVALLENTINE, and it´s name is "Adele - Set Fire To The Rain Music Video - With Adele Impersonator". Please watch it first, before reading any further.

                                  So this video has now some positive feed back, but it had some rough comments under it for a while, than good, and than another bad comments so it was like on a rollercoster for a while. My comment made  to the Top comments, but it dissapeared, so I am going to unwind it here.
                                   So basically art means to express somethin, in direct or allegorical way. The magic about this is that because of variety of peoples personality it can be interpretate in both ways at the same time. What also bothers me, that, for example, a painting with a splash of color on it can be sold by bilions of dollars, so if I would be an art criticque, I will judge art by it´s complexity first, then by meaning of it, and lastly by history  of author in art, so the final prize would be 100 €. It could be lesser, but the prize also counts with the companies and authors reputation.
                                    This video is depicting a story, that describes twist in Adeles (impersonator) life. The female dancer is by the thoughts of people supposed to be Adeles allegory. The video artistically depicts the joy and struggles of love life. The most hated part is when the two male dancers start dance with each other.
                                      So the problem with this is prejudice, because the "weird" part, where two men dance is making some people uncofortable. What they don´t realize that this is artistic video, so the meaning of two guys dancing can be also explained otherwise. This video can also depict a man (as Adeles impersonator) that lost his love to another male/female. The posibilities are endless, because the video itself is basing its art on the song, so the purpose of the video is to show the posibilities of causes for "setting fire to the rain". The song itself is about broken heart, and the cause is mystified in lyrics.
                                      The cause that art can recieve negative feedback is, that people defend what they are projecting themselves onto. For example, I wouldn´t buy a splash of color as a painting even not for 3€, but for someone it´s more complex and has more meaning for them. As I stated before, on my previous topics, people choose types of music, based on their personalities, their beliefs and current life-view. If one of these things is questioned or attacked by other forms of art, they start to hate it and attack it back. We can even asociate art with things, that hurted us or are of some kind of potential threat, in the way that can crumble and destroy our world, that we created in our minds. And this is what people need to understand, because the basic root of non-profit for companies, deniyng rights of people and so on, is based on hate. For the record, by hate I mean general disliking, not only it´s extreme form.
                                        So you can have a opinion from your life that being gay is bad, but remember it´s your opinion not everybody. Freedom is not like a field, it´s more like a skyscraper. Your freedom ends there,where other people freedom begins and vice versa. By more people that came to this world, the more posibilities of what can you do in/with your life would raise, but the weigh of your actions will also raise, and the same is for responsibilties. The skyscraper grows taller everyday, but at the same time also grows thinner, and that is even what every goverment needs to know.
                                        So if you don´t like some art, or something, try to reflect it on something that you like. Try to go in gallery, and make up your story for examle and try it develop, or describe it, by every art piece that is there. Maybe you will then create a good book or movie :) .

Lastly, I want to say that, people need to realize, before memorize.

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Students White Russian


Students White Russian

               Hi guys. So this is an alternative to original drink "White Russian". Original recipe can be
found here, but by original I mean most preferable, because there are slightly different concoctions around the world. This is not an actual photo, it´s just here for illustration.                
                   I recently drink this a lot, because I am currently writing my bachelor thesis. It has been certified, that beer helps you with searching for ideas and coffe makes you focus on them. But I am a big deal, so I need a harder fuel than beer for this kind of stuff. ;) :D


  • Vodka
  • Milk/Cream
  Basically you add half of a shot glass of vodka to a cup of milk. You can add more vodka of course, but I like when I couldn´t sense the taste of alcohols in drinks, because I mainly like my alcohol pure. This drinks, and it´s other alternatives scream: "Live me the fuck alone for now." or "I´m DONE." or "I have an idea for my work, don´t disturb.". I think it´s screaming that, but maybe it´s just me, because I mainly drink this when I am in those moods. So if you see me drinking this drink, just don´t make eye contact, and stealthly walk away :). Here are some of my alternitives for this drink.

Students Hot Dark Russian

The recipie is the same, but first you make yourself of hot cocoa. Don´t used ordinary cococa powder but the sweetened one that are made for children. It is like every grain of sugar covered in cocoa. Just warm the milk in microwave with vodka and then add the sweetened cocoa powder. I add more vodka in this one, because heating it up will decrease the taste of alcohol in drink. This variant is dangerous, because if you didn´t pay attention to how many you had of these, you will end up drunk. 

Now these are the same but with some difirences:

  • Students Hot White Russian: Same as Students Hot Dark Russian, but leave out the sweetened cocoa powder.
  • Students Cool Dark Russian: Same as Students Hot Dark Russian, but you didn´t heat it up. You can also add Ice, and/or let it in the fridge for an hour.
  • Students White French: Instead of vodka, use cognac, or applejack. Also adding cocoa powder will make your drink Dark, heating it up will make it Hot, and so on, like with the previous alternatives.
I mostly prefer Students Hot White French, because of taste, and it tastes good. Have fun, but be aware and don´t get drunk... too much. Passed out is OK if it´s weekend... sorta.

See ya next time ;).