Saturday, January 19, 2019

A box of matches

A box of matches,
is all that took,
to keep me warm,
and made the world hooked.

Like in a fairytale,
written by Andersen,
about one winter,
that was quite bothersome.

What I had saw
and what I must do,
across the universe,
I´m reaching for you.

About the northern lights, you know,
and perhaps in fear you might be,
but dreams come true for the brave,
and there surely are wonders to see.

                                  ...Just one star? Make that three!!!
                                           No more prophecies everyone´s free, from this madness of Paris...

Undone be London
and it´s November,
pick a perfume,
for days to remember.

And bring an umbrella
in case of the rain,
because together,
we´re spending the day.

Don't forget some jokes,
about that one date,
when people of Notre-Dame,
sang: "When Saturn comes late...".

You may know it all,
some secrets had been told,
but I only want a hand,
which is only mine to hold.

And if you might wonder,
what I might ask,
after all that happened,
what´s left to mask?

And if you will doubt,
that I can´t let go of control,
I rest you assured,
I just want to watch the flow.

                                  ... and I´m just wondering, what the last gift shall I give?
                                                              But I can think about it in those last 3 years that I will live... 

Monday, August 13, 2018

Rant: The whole country should be thrown into trash! (part 1 of 2)

I wondered how I would make a consistent article about the state of Slovakia, but the problems that it has, are so intertwined (and many yet uncovered)I decided to just list them. Use this as a guide if you ever want to function in this country. May contain offensive language, be warned:

1.  Teachers are useless

First of all, I want to state, that I had some pretty good teachers at elementary school as I went with my friends, thanks to them, on many competitions like astronomy, geology, mathematics and such and you should really consider putting your child through some, even if he/she  doesn´t want it, because diplomas from those competitions count as points towards acceptance to a better middle school. Now let me explain the educational system here so you have a rough mental picture of how it works:

a, Kindergarten (not mandatory)
b, Preschool (1 year, not mandatory, doesn´t count towards the law mentioned later)
c, Elementary school (9 years, mandatory)
d, Middle school (depends on the type that the kid goes to but the norm is mostly 4 or 5 years, only 1 year is mandatory as the minimum of 10 years of education must be taken as it is stated by law). The most common types of middle schools in Slovakia are Vocational, Gymnasium, Industrial, and Business. Vocational schools have their subtypes but they tend to be conjoined with the Business schools so you have a kind of separate type.
e, Universities (usually 3 years are the norm for the bachelor degree, +2 for masters, but the Ph.D. mostly varies from 5 to 7. Universities also took upon the role of colleges as they also offer the distinct form of studies for adults on the job market. University can be attended only by finishing the middle school with the right type of graduation and passing the entry tests if there are any.)

Now, it´s all good and cool while your kid is in the elementary. Besides teacher´s failing marriage and thus taking it on the kids or timid teacher overpowered by kids and getting locked in the dumpster is a usual occurrence all around the world and considered normal here. The problem starts when your kid enters middle school. You see, a different type of school has a different type of curriculum on the subject, but the same teacher can teach the subject at any school. So your kid can end up on a Gymnasium (which should prepare your kid for university) expecting that the teacher will try to teach them quadratic function, differentials, topography, and matrixes until you find out that the Math teacher´s husband, a renowned bodybuilder, is solving the homework that she provided, because she didn´t even have a fucking clue what kind of math problem she created AND IF IT IS REALLY SOLVABLE BECAUSE SHE JUST DISCOVERED THE TOPIC THAT SHE NEED TO TEACH A FEW MONTHS AGO AFTER SHE WAS HIRED! AND WHEN HE DIED SHE QUIT BECAUSE SHE COULDN´T COMPUTE!!! LITERALLY!!! YOU SEE THE PROBLEM? (Before SJW´s chime in, you should know, that despite the fact she ruined future for many of kids, she wasn´t even properly reimbursed) For example, my math teacher before teaching on Gymnasium taught quadratic function on a CONJOINED school in the last year of attendance. The quadratic function is taught in Gymnasiums in the second half of the first year. We learned it in the second year. We didn´t learn about matrices or differentials AT ALL AND BARELY TOUCHED UPON FUNCTIONS! 

Solution to this may be a segregation by resumé and an automatic, official, no "buddy-buddy, you scratch my back I scratch yours" career movement (which is almost impossible at this point). The fact, that needs to be stated, that there even exists a 1-year minimal degree for teaching and it has the same weight as the 5-year degree for teaching, is not even funny. It´s lovecraftially-hysterical (Note: I became insane from anger from writing this at this point). Slovakia pushes for industrial sciences and studies, yet has not enough experienced teachers, and even if it hires a foreign one, usually the fuck just buys a book from Amazon, learns it word by word and gets the money from the school, the country and the percentage from what the country of origin of the teacher gives to Slovakia, while experienced teachers get fired. Top fucking LOL.

Even if you still consider to be a teacher, good luck to you, as teachers tend to form "sister-mafia-pacts" where they only hire family and friends. So a newcomer has almost no chance.

Second of all, some parts of Slovakia has really vile, vile, viiiiiiileeeee children so getting locked in a dumpster is just the tip of the iceberg. The next best thing is getting fucked by a student (as a teacher), which is considered a normal taboo as anywhere else. Yes, it is. Your bubble isn´t "The World".

This "Teacher Problem" has so many layers, I don´t even know if I touch on everything, but the problem which is mainly connected to this is the "Rampant Teenage Alcoholism" I will discuss later.

Oh, and remember how I told you that elementary schools are okay? Well, if you now expect for your kid to get some diplomas, so they have a headway start on a university or middle school, you can forget it. Many teachers turn these competitions into a fucking tea-party, where they favorite already knows the answer and only their free-time and gossip matters. Or they turn it into "everybody is a winner" so the diplomas have no value. Go figure.

However, even though there are some good teachers, it's like taking into consideration 600 square miles of fields just for 5 spikes of saffron. Either you use intrigue here, or get eaten by the business. Which leads me to:

2. Universities don´t do extra research

Even though you only pay for food and a place to stay, don´t get wide-eyed when you start to attend a university here. If you are a foreigner, you´re good. My friend during her Ph.D. studies had to GIVE her assigned computer with HER RESEARCH to some foreigner because he liked the color of the monitor on the computer. But it´s understandable since he was a Saudi, and this I will discuss in part 2. But other foreign students get that benefits too, because of money from their countries.

If you an orphan or from older parents, or have parents with cancer and want to study, you´re fucked. It´s an almost abysmal chance that you will be granted social stipendium (bourses) for students in need as only those with divorced fucks will get them. And, dear sweet Slovakia, instead of investigating the income of the divorced fucks, they made the rules strict for those that are in need, as some of them literally needed to change their place of residence so they can pose as a child of a single parent, while the divorced fucks have many businesses, which ownership is by another family member, or even worked without a contract so they can pose as unemployed. Not to mention the money they get as divorcees and that unchecked tax ease during their marriage, so basically the country is a huge marriage scam. So enjoy your night out with your friends while knowing about the social stipendium.

As for "the Grants" on the PhDr., they have official rules, but please don´t be surprised if your cancer research doesn't make the cut but butterfly dimorphism does. It´s all about who sucked the dick to whom. And even when you get it, the one that should lead your work will steal the money for him anyway and tax it in accounting with some bullshit receipts.

As for your thesis, doesn´t matter which one, it´s checked by the software for plagiarism which is unbelievably broken. An original work can get a percentage for plagiarism because of the form you are supposed to withhold (and it is given by the university) while writing your thesis, and sometimes the software misses the "copy-paste" works completely. Many of theses were written by someone else, even some businesses like this exist all around Slovakia, so if you just trying to get a title, give up your dreams and go for social worker studies. If you want to confront the software developers, most of them will tell you about football, what girl they fucked or something similar. Those that were cracking/hacking/ rewriting games in the 90s and 2000s are either gone or are totally ignored on the job market for the junior positions so really reconsider if you want to lose your mind. 

However, there is a united form of how your thesis should look like, but every professor and every faculty will tell you something different because no-one gives a fuck really. So don´t try to research something new, just reform an old work, and bonus points if your work helps your "professor" with their work. See? Slovakia is up with the rest of the world with this. So don´t be shocked if you see kids on PhDr. with shit works, running around screaming "Hitler/Stalin did nothing wrong".

Also if you want to finish your university sooner by attending multiple courses or subjects, you can´t. There is a limit on credits per year,  so even if you want to attend a course that gives you certificate on the side like a manager (and it´s some basic shit, no even Prince2 or something), basically you need to drop out, pay 600€ for an extra year, do the subject and then 600€ for every next year to finish.

Also if you want to study from the east end of the country in the west, be prepared for rampant racism and discouragement. Just saying so you cannot tell I didn´t warn you.

3. Doctors are a disaster !!

Students of medicine like to cry that have a lot of studies, yet you can found groups of them at any bar during the exam period. They can cry about histology and such, but if you are wealthy, you can pass with flying colors. You can see even pamphlets on the examination halls that say that the exams are in so and so day and time, but if you pay 250€ you can pass it without attending. Makes you wonder if they also take coupons. Law students have those privileges also. And don´t worry if you see a 50-year-old fuck dating a student. He is probably a decan.

Also, if you believe that doctors are just looking for customers, it´s more than true here. So be careful if you get prescribed something because doctors have no clue if their medicine is going to collide with the ones you have. Many older and younger people end up in the hospital because, for example, Predogalbin which is a pain reliever drug for spine problems, because a doctor prescribed it knowing full well, that the patient has a bypass and takes several other drugs like Pradaxa, which dilutes the blood or the other ones that are a heavy load on liver and kidneys. This can knock the person out like it happened to one of my family members. Always go with an internet or with the pamphlets to a doctor (the ones that are included in every package of your medicine to check if they are going to collide).

Same with the dentist. Or any doctor with a small office. A contract that you don´t want to be a guinea pig for starting doctors is non-existent here, so basically if you want to put your health documentation and attend to a specific doctor, you can´t. You will end up with someone else as I did. The doctor I wanted to attend was a dentist, but he gave me to some cunt that did my teeth fillings and I ended up with a necrosis of my jaw. And if you think that one doctor sends you to another just for one examination to get a paper that he needs, don´t be surprised if you need to wait a year to get it (even if your operation is next month) or you need to get there several times, so the other doctor can fill up his documentation so he can apply to your insurance company to pay the costs.

The best KEKing part is, that when sisters in hospitals and teachers took a strike for their underpayment... well I will discuss that in part 2.

4. Courses for the unemployed are a scam!

So if you are unemployed in Slovakia, you need to be enlisted in the Office for work, social matters and family. If you are traveling 600 km for an interview and don´t have a car, you are fucked. The thing is that you can be reimbursed for your travels, but the tickets you provide as an evidence need to be from the same day (back and forth) and then they can only cost maximum of 35€. Mind you that a train ticket for such distance cost around 42€. Nope, there are no Skype interview calls here. Not even from foreign companies. And the infrastructure sucks constantly gets rebuilt and it can happen that they forget to reimburse you even if you fill out the form and sent it. 

Now, you can apply for some courses to change your profession, HOWEVER, don´t expect professionalism or accuracy of the described course. Remember, everything is a fucking family business. Office of unemployed, for example, forced me to one of those courses, didn´t even want to change it during it as it was basically BENEATH ME AS I KNEW ALREADY THAT SHIT. It was basically a course for a fucking WORDPRESS USAGE even though it was parading around as a GENERAL WEB DEVELOPER COURSE. THE FUCKING MANAGER/LEADER/PRINCIPAL OR WHAT THE FUCK WAS PARADING AROUND USING THE APPLICANTS OF THE COURSE AS A FREE CHEAP LABOR AROUND THE PLACE, AND THE LECTOR WAS SOME YOUNG TEENAGE FUCK WHO DIDN´T EVEN HAD A LECTOR LICENSE. All we did was singing, watching films and such. Yes, he showed us how to use WordPress for 5 days in total. The course was supposed to be 20 days and The Office paid 748€ for that shit. The secretary or the person responsible for the first contact wasn´t behind the desk all the time, called me on the day when the course should start about the time of it´s beginning. Now I am stuck with an IT Web developer certificate and if I want to achieve the real one, I can´t because The Office will take it as I already went through a similar course. So if you are looking for a job or a course to attend, BEWARE OF "FAMILY BUSINESS" and "WE ARE LOOKING FOR YOUNG PEOPLE TO OUR TEAM" in the descriptions and know that even AT&T, AMAZON, ACCENTURE and other foreign companies are doing the same shit here. The Family cancer is everywhere and in part 2 you will know why it is A cancer.

Also doesn´t matter how skilled you are, the main predisposition is to be a student (and a girl) because they don´t pay employee taxes for you, as the university does it for them. So there are some pretty ties there. Which ties to:

5. Tough luck with HR and Managers

Everybody has problems with HR aaaalll around the world. But especially there is a problem when they are kids. Basically, if you want to start in HR, you have a deadline and a number you need to achieve. Kudos to those that are exceptions to this, but I´m not going to consider 600 square miles of fields just for 3 spikes of saffron as I mentioned earlier. The thing is, that if you want to start as an HR and don´t have a friend or family anywhere (as for most jobs in Slovakia) tough luck to you. Also be careful if you a woman and apply for this position. Many girls are hired here just to fulfill the old dream of a "boss and a sluty secretary scenario" so you can end up with a lot of shit on your plate from emotional and mental damage, to financial problems. Very serious financial problems.

However, if you even want to do your job respectfully, you can´t, as the pressure for deadlines and numbers is just more of a pleasing a boss thing than a "getting-fired" thread.

However, due to vaaastly different lifestyles in this country, HR, or kindergarteners as I like to call them, will basically go by the mantra "we are looking for someone young to create a team" so basically they are expecting to talk with you about hoes, alcohol, hip-hop and shit basically. Mind you I was working from ELEMENTARY SCHOOL  on building sites, had several part-time jobs during my studies and almost never experienced that Californian summer as portrayed everywhere, have gone through a lot of stuff and yet, they will view your job experience as "not enough" as they will never look on a lot of job experience as a hard-worker. Remember, they are here for the numbers.

The problem is also with the West and East parts of Slovakia. Many kids in the east part where tending on the fields every day, went to school and if they wanted to be social, they could go to a club, but by the cost of their sleep. The West kids are a typical movie-starbuckloving-potsmoking-gamer shits that don´t know problems, besides getting a GF or BF and that´s it. And the older folk have even more experienced life as they lost their older siblings to field-work so they could eat during winter. But more on that in part 2.

6. Job scams

Since the Family values Cancer is all around the business, be prepared when you get a job interview, you might going to be interviewed for a job that you didn´t even apply for and even tough luck to you if you are a woman. Yes, being a woman can get you a job more easily here, but at a cost of a "slutty secretary" scenario I mentioned earlier. In one of my part-time jobs, I was interviewing a woman (as a part-timer mind you, because the boss doesn´t give a shit, because of family business values so everybody can do everything) and of course, she was more skilled for the job than I will ever be, well-travelled, lots of years of experience, nuff said. However, she didn´t get the job, because when the bosses girlfriend found out, she didn´t like the fact that she had bigger tits (a 20-year-old, the bosses girlfriend was 35) and I heard that statement verbatim

If you are looking for a job online, avoid as the site is full of scam and don´t look for a serious job on facebook here. Only small jobs are somewhat okay. If you are looking for a job online, keep in mind, that you can end up in a job where a manager calls you a faggot, imbecile on a daily basis and the measures you can take are at your cost, so don´t expect it to be it like in Canada or anywhere else in the world.

And don´t believe anybody can get on a junior position and even if the English language is a necessity for a job, don´t believe that, it´s only about the connection.

Recent laws even prevent graduates to move into a different city where they can find a part-time job until they find a real one, as you need to be enlisted in the Office, make maximum of almost  200€ (if you make more, you are fired from the office and you need to pay your health insurance and other things by yourself) and you can work in a part-time only for a maximum of a month. You can thank the older cunts on the Office with their family values crap. Also, not everybody that searches for a job after graduation gets a monthly fee. Also, be prepared that you need to visit the office around the middle of the month in the same time as HR decides to call. It´s usual to get lice from traveling for interviews or some allergies so imagine, or even necrosis handling all tha, but you know #IloveSlovakia 

Part 2 coming soon...

Saturday, May 26, 2018

The Day That Never Died...

I wish I could tell you a lie,
how I wish this day would have died,
because when this day happened,
and I had certainly cried,
but this one day
never had died...

I remember how we talked,
under the open sky,
about the things that happened,
that not many survived,
about the meaning of the Philosopher´s stone,
and if it´s just a radioactive ore in an aluminum foil...

About the parable of the Prodigal son,
and how is it about Lucifer thinking he won,
and about the visions, that future may bring,
but that fateful day has a painful sting,
because I realized, I will never wear the ring...

And that day, that should have died,
would become the center of my life...

I was there for you when you attempted suicide,
low on money, not swallowing your pride,
and the things your father had said,
resonated, and we made a plan that paid...

But you viewed me as a brother and nothing more,
my heart is certainly washed up somewhere on the shore...

And I had worked the fields all the summer nights and days,
so some dumb-urban people would have something to say,
I thought  you understand since you were abused,
but since you, every boyfriend colored me used...


That fateful day that should have certainly died,
and Lord knows I tried to forget, oh, and how I tried,
but I still remember the sunset next to the moonrise,
how the evening started and the morning was a surprise.

How the summer rain came and went,
but not one dime of silence was spent,
and we realized, that when feminists start to toot their horn,
we will become forgotten, the urchins and the later-born...

And we fought for our generation that was used at the time,
but many were manipulated into the life of crime,
almost as you, as it was so tempting,
to have what everyone has, and now you were getting...

A glimpse of hope was seen with their scream #AllforJan,
and only we knew, he wasn´t the only one,
and even our prez found out he is gay,
but he will not come out as it´s not the Day...

I thought that everything in me had died,
but this Day, only Lord knows what else will survive,
and their scamming agenda for family values,
will strip even women from some of their status...

But since you had left with that Day of a dream,
I worked my way around, to get where I need to be,
and even though this will not end my tries,
it´s time for me to say to it the last goodbye...

As for this day, that never had died,
it´s time for me to bury it, even if it´s alive,
so is the purpose of this poem, or at least it´s its aim,
as on a haunted grave, I hope it stays never looked upon again...

Friday, February 9, 2018

Essay on the Light and Darkness


I´m back after a quite while as I had a busy 2 or so years, so for those who waited for the aforementioned blog on twitter, I lost my research, so I´m doing this topic instead. The reason is mainly that I traveled a lot. I talked to a lot of people, I was involved in a lot of things and had a lot of thoughts, particularly about this topic. I was thinking about this a long time ago but decided to write it down now, for whatever reason that is unclear even to me.

As for my travels, I encountered the phenomenon of cognitive dissonance. Now, if someone mentions this term, you may think that someone is going to talk about how someone or some people, or even the world,  is stupid as this is the usual connotation for this term in a conversation, but I elaborated on this in my mind and got very metaphysical. The point is, that Alice (see previous posts) urged me to write about the immigrants becoming a political power tool (like nukes in the Cold War era but reversed), separation of  Doneck Republic, Annexation of Crimea, Rise of Trump and fall of Clinton, Slovakia´s political straight alliance disguised as an insurance/mortgage scam, fall of the Polish plane with their president, bombing at the Ariana Grande concert before it even happened, but what intrigued me, and it is the main reason I didn´t write about it is, that I was intrigued by the fact of how come nobody saw it coming.

Instead of explaining how come I knew these things would happen, besides my "little birds" (maybe in the discussions, comments, whatever medium is available), I would like to present you my way of thinking and seeing the world. Which is basically an opinion. On the internet. So you know how this will go :D

The Angels and Demons

It is interesting to mention, as this can be used as an example and a bridge to the point of this essay basically, that Slovakia had an increase in the private business sector with Angel therapy, Angelologists, Angel help-divination and so on. This type of niche in the market is quite experimental to my taste as the precursors for this type of business to be successful is there, however, it falls short in the long run. The fact, that Slovakia is religious can be used to set up and invest in a business like this, as many people here are Roman Catholic so the presumption might go, that people would rather have, and be a more trustfull and reoccuring customer to an oracle working with angels rather than to a someone practicing Wicca (which is not widely known in Slovakia, and thus it is viewed as a part of an alternative subulture, batched together with pot-smoking, raving or psychedelic movement, even though Wicca has different branches and most of them are, like some would say, "compatible with the traditionalists", just for your information). However, what managers, business investors or ordinary people may miss is the fact, that the precursor isn´t the fact that Slovakia belongs to the religious belt of Europe. Quite the contrary. 

The religiousness of Slovakia is supported by the fact that after the fall of Austria-Hungary, Slovakia was left with only a strong agricultural industry. This industry requires more attention, even if automated, to be running smoothly. Thus, family values and overall traditional values (as you need people to crop the fields to survive the year and mainly winter, because more children equal´s more work-force and thus decreasing the harvest time of a 50 acres fields which leads to increasing of the size of the fields and so on) get stronger and more embedded in the population more, than artistic and idealistic pursuits, as farming is time-consuming. And since farming is time-consuming, people don´t want to think about whether public breastfeeding is okay or not. They want to have a set of rules of life, given by somebody else, as they don´t have time to find their own way. This seclusive and time-consuming style of life means that traditions get passed more easily from generation to generation over the years which is the source of the Churches power. And these traditions and personal values stay with the generations that don´t even know what wheat looks like without google. 

So for those that want to set up a business around angels need to keep in mind that new-age terms like "find your path, be free, train your gratitude", as people already have those vague rules that can apply on anything from the traditions of church or family they grew up in. When they come for an angel-oracle they want specifics. And this is the cross of the breaking because you cannot make a business on a nation-wide scale if the mentality is on your way, THUS meaning that your business is going to be urban-oriented. Which means you need to reassess your view on what a city is, because if your business functions on an internet and ear-to-ear friendly suggestion marketing, it´s not gonna boom if  you kickstart in a country, where a city is a "settlement" of 50,000-100,000 people aged mainly between 40-80 from a generation that doesn´t use internet on a daily basis like "everyone" does. Besides that, you need to understand that many people live in the villages with population maximum of 500 and thus you may think, that an ear-to-ear, friend-to-friend marketing would be more effective, but with those personal values (that word "regional zeitgeist" I hate to use) you will be mentioned only if you impress those people. And you can impress them with specifics that will make an impressive emotional response from the customer, and not vagueness as is the "make someone feel good" goal, as this type of business is based precisely on this "entertainment", unofficial or/and legal laws. And that´s the full circle.

Please, understand, that what I´m trying to say is not how to set up a business like this or explain how Slovakia became what it is currently, I´m trying to showcase my way of thinking in this supposed era of "post-truth". Just read this explanation again and notice how facts don´t imply each other, but make sense and here is why. 

Perverted Kant, Abandoned Wittgenstein and Cackling Bacon 

What I´m trying to say in the paragraph above is for one to realize, that not the absolute black and white facts are important, but the relationship between them is important, BUT not the logical part, but the contextual part. And by contextual part, I mean how it all came to BE, unbiased as possible, like looking at an Antfarm and understanding the holes and caves they make, without any sense of belonging or interest towards them, just clear observation with deducing the most possible outcomes of the shapes and places of their caves in the soil.

The Crux of this era is the word "truth". And since the USA has a strong marketing presence on the internet, their values are strongly shared and pressed (this isn't going to be an Anti-American propaganda, just explaining my point as you will see further). Since U.S. were created from the colonies, a diversion between the populace occurred by being separated by distances and by "growing up" with different problems, thus leading to the word "truth" being misused as in  "I have mine and you have yours". During their unification, the forefathers saw that this can lead to problems on a political scale, so using force and non-resolving the issues (which some are not even capable of resolving due to the different mentality of some states, stemming from their history) is the ideal easy way to keep things in place. This may seem good, but adding time into the equation, we saw what happened at Berkley, the strong refusal of gun-regulation and such, and it all stems from the secluded way of life from the first colonies when the "tribal mentality" developed, same as in Slovakia, but for different reasons.

As Wittgenstein in his work On Certainty tried to showcase the difference between believing and knowing and ended up showcasing that opinions don´t matter much as the relation to the other opinions in a person´s mind does, as they can trigger a behavior or an act that can not only damage society, but it can derail everything we know into the Brave New World novel given the space and mainly time. This situation in the world lead to Kant´s noumena being perverted to a simple equation feelings=truth same as facts because they´re basically just thoughts in a person´s mind and thus they must be equal on an ontological scale. That is the reason, why I think Bacon must be laughing because he indirectly predicted this whole mess in his New Organon, with his concept of idola fori  being the spark for what had happened; stemming and being supported by idola tribus, which in this day and age of urbanization is being prevalent, thus it focuses market on it and thus we see things like fake news and "10 Disney princess if they were real women" and such. And for me, this is not the "truth" as it brings up unresolved problems from the past.

On Light and Darkness

We are all familiar with concepts of Light and Darkness, Light being the good, the truth, the clarity, the thing we want, the known, the happiness and so on while Darkness is the opposite. If someone would ever present me an option, to choose between the Light and Darkness, I would choose Darkness. Not because of power, but because in Darkness is the truth as it really is. In Light, you can see everything, which is not good. Because in Light a foil from a candy can appear to be like a 5000€ opal from Swarovski until you touch it. In Darkness, you need to be careful not to bump into things and only senses you are left with is touch and hearing. With touch, you experience, perceive the thing as it really is, unbiased, unopinionated and you become curious, as of whether the thing you are holding is going to hurt you or not... but you are curious, maybe fearful, but it´s the drive for curiousness. In Darkness, you are able to recognize the difference after some time of what structured language is being used by a liar and a truth-teller. In Light you can give into their appearances, as people strive for belonging to somewhere/someone. In Darkness, you can not rely on the laziness of the eyes, meaning you know what you see, because that´s how prejudice is spawned, also with opinions. In Darkness, you need to rely on your trust, touch, hearing and applied logic. In Darkness you would understand, that logic is not a path to truth, but a mere Lego to get there, so it is important how you use it. In Darkness, you use logic outwards, towards your surroundings, in Light you use it to protect your view and opinions because of your laziness and comfort-zone. Yet people would die without the Light. If I retract from this allegory, Bacon even stated, that the human nature is built in such way, that to say that to truly know something, we must master it, meaning, having the knowledge of the thing sufficient enough to bend it and twist and APPLY IT to OUR WILL, which Rorty hoped isn´t true. That is why people chase the Light in Darkness, failing its tests. Because in Darkness, you truly see, paradoxically, how much you are in your head and how much weight your opinions and prejudices have weight to you because without Light, you can see nothing to support your own belief. In Darkness you gain skills, in Light you gain perspective and together you gain truths that create wisdom. In Light you can have so many perspectives that it can lead to illusions, but applying skills, and repeating that process, you become active and realize, that the truth is really "how the thing is". The real truth is realizing we are human, strapping the perspectives of Light and Dark and focusing on the how something becomes something, and the badness or goodness of the thing. So at the end, there is no such thing as truth as we imagined it. There is only "what happened, what is" and the relation to everything else and that the truth cannot be known, only experienced and be it later as a memory. Understanding this can better your deduction and induction skills, better your research and planning. But it is still only an opinion.

This was my two cents since I didn´t post for a long time, had a free time so I tried to pass it by, writing this. Anyways, thanks for clicking and have good day.

Friday, March 24, 2017

The Painting

A mural brushed by eons on the wall,
from a fairy godmother, a lost call,
bells, dust, and dollars on the waste,
last visitors and no poker face.

But a smile from under the veil,
the mysterious prisoner without a bail,
as a quick spider, weaving its web,
a princess is meaningless for a pleb,

A flower, a rose, a common sense,
the wars of angels are getting tense,
and while you´re waiting with a bouquet,
your lips may lie, but your eyes aren´t okay.

And so a chilling mist couldn't fell,
not for a song disguised as a yell,
thus lower your back, take your poise,
in this orchestra of static noise.

This is not the end, as the wars may come,
the moon is for all, but the stars are for some,
what can I say, I just can not lie,
but for a smile, how many can die?

She painted like a kid with her hands,
the flowers, the dollars, the common sense,
and the visitors came after all,
to pay her and to see her fall...

There´s something wrong with what you had paid for...

Thursday, January 12, 2017

A whisper

Solemnly night of a soulless fear,
holding to your heart as it is dear,
in a light shining as courage itself,
under the nightly hour of twelve.

No pearls are hiding under that cloak,
there are no apples under elderly oak,
if words of hope are giving you dread,
heart can shiver,  but the soul is dead.

A beautiful ballad of chance and choice,
a harmony of a swan song and poise,
merely an illusive ending for a heart,
will give your soul an ahead of a start.

An internal winter starts a bonfire,
that fuels the heart and it's desire,
and from that, will births the strength,
which you can travel to any length.

When climbing the hill nears it's end,
it's up to you, if you will crack and bend,
instead of worrying if your luck will shift,
be to yourself the most biggest gift.

A dark night always creates the sun,
after the moon ends it's nightly run,
from a cold wind you can have a blister,
or you can take it as a hopeful whisper.

Life is a dance of a soul and it's heart,
where one would end, the other starts,
a snow is a water inspired by sand,
when taking a bow, prepare your stance.

Monday, October 31, 2016

A Dream

A dream has a strange scent, the one that can hide the dark, and when you savor it till the end, it lefts on your soul a beauty mark. I know that love has many shades, so it doesn't seem to be vulnerable, but as a queen of hearts and spades, his gaze became more memorable. But my dream wasn't just a game, even when the north became south, hope and tears came without a name, and it took my breath from my mouth. He stood there, as he tried to be mine, and maybe even stars fell that night, but silent as a little anxious mime, he watched as tears covered my sight. Maybe he liked me a little bit more, with hidden heart, away from the world. How will it be, if he was more sure? ...the dream is now a thought to hold...