A box of matches

A box of matches,
is all that took,
to keep me warm,
and made the world hooked.

Like in a fairytale,
written by Andersen,
about one winter,
that was quite bothersome.

What I had saw
and what I must do,
across the universe,
I´m reaching for you.

About the northern lights, you know,
and perhaps in fear you might be,
but dreams come true for the brave,
and there surely are wonders to see.

                                  ...Just one star? Make that three!!!
                                           No more prophecies everyone´s free, from this madness of Paris...

Undone be London
and it´s November,
pick a perfume,

for days to remember.

And bring an umbrella
in case of the rain,
because together,
we´re spending the day.

Don't forget some jokes,
about that one date,
when people of Notre-Dame,
sang: "When Saturn comes late...".

You may know it all,
some secrets had been told,
but I only want a hand,
which is only mine to hold.

And if you might wonder,
what I might ask,
after all that happened,
what´s left to mask?

And if you will doubt,
that I can´t let go of control,
I rest you assured,

I just want to watch the flow.

                                  ... and I´m just wondering, what the last gift shall I give?
                                                              But I can think about it in those last 3 years that I will live... 

Rant: The whole country should be thrown into trash! (part 1 of 2)

I wondered how I would make a consistent article about the state of Slovakia, but the problems that it has, are so intertwined (and many yet uncovered)I decided to just list them. Use this as a guide if you ever want to function in this country. May contain offensive language, be warned:

1.  Teachers are useless

First of all, I want to state, that I had some pretty good teachers at elementary school as I went with my friends, thanks to them, on many competitions like astronomy, geology, mathematics and such and you should really consider putting your child through some, even if he/she  doesn´t want it, because diplomas from those competitions count as points towards acceptance to a better middle school. Now let me explain the educational system here so you have a rough mental picture of how it works:

a, Kindergarten (not mandatory)

b, Preschool (1 year, not mandatory, doesn´t count towards the law mentioned later)

c, Elementary school (9 years, mandatory)

d, Middle school (depends on the type that the kid goes to but the norm is mostly 4 or 5 years, only 1 year is mandatory as the minimum of 10 years of education must be taken as it is stated by law). The most common types of middle schools in Slovakia are Vocational, Gymnasium, Industrial, and Business. Vocational schools have their subtypes but they tend to be conjoined with the Business schools so you have a kind of separate type.

e, Universities (usually 3 years are the norm for the bachelor degree, +2 for masters, but the Ph.D. mostly varies from 5 to 7. Universities also took upon the role of colleges as they also offer the distinct form of studies for adults on the job market. University can be attended only by finishing the middle school with the right type of graduation and passing the entry tests if there are any.)

Now, it´s all good and cool while your kid is in the elementary. Besides teacher´s failing marriage and thus taking it on the kids or timid teacher overpowered by kids and getting locked in the dumpster is a usual occurrence all around the world and considered normal here. The problem starts when your kid enters middle school. You see, a different type of school has a different type of curriculum on the subject, but the same teacher can teach the subject at any school. So your kid can end up on a Gymnasium (which should prepare your kid for university) expecting that the teacher will try to teach them quadratic function, differentials, topography, and matrixes until you find out that the Math teacher´s husband, a renowned bodybuilder, is solving the homework that she provided, because she didn´t even have a fucking clue what kind of math problem she created AND IF IT IS REALLY SOLVABLE BECAUSE SHE JUST DISCOVERED THE TOPIC THAT SHE NEED TO TEACH A FEW MONTHS AGO AFTER SHE WAS HIRED! AND WHEN HE DIED SHE QUIT BECAUSE SHE COULDN´T COMPUTE!!! LITERALLY!!! YOU SEE THE PROBLEM? (Before SJW´s chime in, you should know, that despite the fact she ruined future for many of kids, she wasn´t even properly reimbursed) For example, my math teacher before teaching on Gymnasium taught quadratic function on a CONJOINED school in the last year of attendance. The quadratic function is taught in Gymnasiums in the second half of the first year. We learned it in the second year. We didn´t learn about matrices or differentials AT ALL AND BARELY TOUCHED UPON FUNCTIONS! 

Solution to this may be a segregation by resumé and an automatic, official, no "buddy-buddy, you scratch my back I scratch yours" career movement (which is almost impossible at this point). The fact, that needs to be stated, that there even exists a 1-year minimal degree for teaching and it has the same weight as the 5-year degree for teaching, is not even funny. It´s lovecraftially-hysterical (Note: I became insane from anger from writing this at this point). Slovakia pushes for industrial sciences and studies, yet has not enough experienced teachers, and even if it hires a foreign one, usually the fuck just buys a book from Amazon, learns it word by word and gets the money from the school, the country and the percentage from what the country of origin of the teacher gives to Slovakia, while experienced teachers get fired. Top fucking LOL.

Even if you still consider to be a teacher, good luck to you, as teachers tend to form "sister-mafia-pacts" where they only hire family and friends. So a newcomer has almost no chance.

Second of all, some parts of Slovakia has really vile, vile, viiiiiiileeeee children so getting locked in a dumpster is just the tip of the iceberg. The next best thing is getting fucked by a student (as a teacher), which is considered a normal taboo as anywhere else. Yes, it is. Your bubble isn´t "The World".

This "Teacher Problem" has so many layers, I don´t even know if I touch on everything, but the problem which is mainly connected to this is the "Rampant Teenage Alcoholism" I will discuss later.

Oh, and remember how I told you that elementary schools are okay? Well, if you now expect for your kid to get some diplomas, so they have a headway start on a university or middle school, you can forget it. Many teachers turn these competitions into a fucking tea-party, where they favorite already knows the answer and only their free-time and gossip matters. Or they turn it into "everybody is a winner" so the diplomas have no value. Go figure.

However, even though there are some good teachers, it's like taking into consideration 600 square miles of fields just for 5 spikes of saffron. Either you use intrigue here, or get eaten by the business. Which leads me to:

2. Universities don´t do extra research

Even though you only pay for food and a place to stay, don´t get wide-eyed when you start to attend a university here. If you are a foreigner, you´re good. My friend during her Ph.D. studies had to GIVE her assigned computer with HER RESEARCH to some foreigner because he liked the color of the monitor on the computer. But it´s understandable since he was a Saudi, and this I will discuss in part 2. But other foreign students get that benefits too, because of money from their countries.

If you an orphan or from older parents, or have parents with cancer and want to study, you´re fucked. It´s an almost abysmal chance that you will be granted social stipendium (bourses) for students in need as only those with divorced fucks will get them. And, dear sweet Slovakia, instead of investigating the income of the divorced fucks, they made the rules strict for those that are in need, as some of them literally needed to change their place of residence so they can pose as a child of a single parent, while the divorced fucks have many businesses, which ownership is by another family member, or even worked without a contract so they can pose as unemployed. Not to mention the money they get as divorcees and that unchecked tax ease during their marriage, so basically the country is a huge marriage scam. So enjoy your night out with your friends while knowing about the social stipendium.

As for "the Grants" on the PhDr., they have official rules, but please don´t be surprised if your cancer research doesn't make the cut but butterfly dimorphism does. It´s all about who sucked the dick to whom. And even when you get it, the one that should lead your work will steal the money for him anyway and tax it in accounting with some bullshit receipts.

As for your thesis, doesn´t matter which one, it´s checked by the software for plagiarism which is unbelievably broken. An original work can get a percentage for plagiarism because of the form you are supposed to withhold (and it is given by the university) while writing your thesis, and sometimes the software misses the "copy-paste" works completely. Many of theses were written by someone else, even some businesses like this exist all around Slovakia, so if you just trying to get a title, give up your dreams and go for social worker studies. If you want to confront the software developers, most of them will tell you about football, what girl they fucked or something similar. Those that were cracking/hacking/ rewriting games in the 90s and 2000s are either gone or are totally ignored on the job market for the junior positions so really reconsider if you want to lose your mind. 

However, there is a united form of how your thesis should look like, but every professor and every faculty will tell you something different because no-one gives a fuck really. So don´t try to research something new, just reform an old work, and bonus points if your work helps your "professor" with their work. See? Slovakia is up with the rest of the world with this. So don´t be shocked if you see kids on PhDr. with shit works, running around screaming "Hitler/Stalin did nothing wrong".

Also if you want to finish your university sooner by attending multiple courses or subjects, you can´t. There is a limit on credits per year,  so even if you want to attend a course that gives you certificate on the side like a manager (and it´s some basic shit, no even Prince2 or something), basically you need to drop out, pay 600€ for an extra year, do the subject and then 600€ for every next year to finish.

Also if you want to study from the east end of the country in the west, be prepared for rampant racism and discouragement. Just saying so you cannot tell I didn´t warn you.

3. Doctors are a disaster !!

Students of medicine like to cry that have a lot of studies, yet you can found groups of them at any bar during the exam period. They can cry about histology and such, but if you are wealthy, you can pass with flying colors. You can see even pamphlets on the examination halls that say that the exams are in so and so day and time, but if you pay 250€ you can pass it without attending. Makes you wonder if they also take coupons. Law students have those privileges also. And don´t worry if you see a 50-year-old fuck dating a student. He is probably a decan.

Also, if you believe that doctors are just looking for customers, it´s more than true here. So be careful if you get prescribed something because doctors have no clue if their medicine is going to collide with the ones you have. Many older and younger people end up in the hospital because, for example, Predogalbin which is a pain reliever drug for spine problems, because a doctor prescribed it knowing full well, that the patient has a bypass and takes several other drugs like Pradaxa, which dilutes the blood or the other ones that are a heavy load on liver and kidneys. This can knock the person out like it happened to one of my family members. Always go with an internet or with the pamphlets to a doctor (the ones that are included in every package of your medicine to check if they are going to collide).

Same with the dentist. Or any doctor with a small office. A contract that you don´t want to be a guinea pig for starting doctors is non-existent here, so basically if you want to put your health documentation and attend to a specific doctor, you can´t. You will end up with someone else as I did. The doctor I wanted to attend was a dentist, but he gave me to some cunt that did my teeth fillings and I ended up with a necrosis of my jaw. And if you think that one doctor sends you to another just for one examination to get a paper that he needs, don´t be surprised if you need to wait a year to get it (even if your operation is next month) or you need to get there several times, so the other doctor can fill up his documentation so he can apply to your insurance company to pay the costs.

The best KEKing part is, that when sisters in hospitals and teachers took a strike for their underpayment... well I will discuss that in part 2.

4. Courses for the unemployed are a scam!

So if you are unemployed in Slovakia, you need to be enlisted in the Office for work, social matters and family. If you are traveling 600 km for an interview and don´t have a car, you are fucked. The thing is that you can be reimbursed for your travels, but the tickets you provide as an evidence need to be from the same day (back and forth) and then they can only cost maximum of 35€. Mind you that a train ticket for such distance cost around 42€. Nope, there are no Skype interview calls here. Not even from foreign companies. And the infrastructure sucks constantly gets rebuilt and it can happen that they forget to reimburse you even if you fill out the form and sent it. 

Now, you can apply for some courses to change your profession, HOWEVER, don´t expect professionalism or accuracy of the described course. Remember, everything is a fucking family business. Office of unemployed, for example, forced me to one of those courses, didn´t even want to change it during it as it was basically BENEATH ME AS I KNEW ALREADY THAT SHIT. It was basically a course for a fucking WORDPRESS USAGE even though it was parading around as a GENERAL WEB DEVELOPER COURSE. THE FUCKING MANAGER/LEADER/PRINCIPAL OR WHAT THE FUCK WAS PARADING AROUND USING THE APPLICANTS OF THE COURSE AS A FREE CHEAP LABOR AROUND THE PLACE, AND THE LECTOR WAS SOME YOUNG TEENAGE FUCK WHO DIDN´T EVEN HAD A LECTOR LICENSE. All we did was singing, watching films and such. Yes, he showed us how to use WordPress for 5 days in total. The course was supposed to be 20 days and The Office paid 748€ for that shit. The secretary or the person responsible for the first contact wasn´t behind the desk all the time, called me on the day when the course should start about the time of it´s beginning. Now I am stuck with an IT Web developer certificate and if I want to achieve the real one, I can´t because The Office will take it as I already went through a similar course. So if you are looking for a job or a course to attend, BEWARE OF "FAMILY BUSINESS" and "WE ARE LOOKING FOR YOUNG PEOPLE TO OUR TEAM" in the descriptions and know that even AT&T, AMAZON, ACCENTURE and other foreign companies are doing the same shit here. The Family cancer is everywhere and in part 2 you will know why it is A cancer.

Also doesn´t matter how skilled you are, the main predisposition is to be a student (and a girl) because they don´t pay employee taxes for you, as the university does it for them. So there are some pretty ties there. Which ties to:

5. Tough luck with HR and Managers

Everybody has problems with HR aaaalll around the world. But especially there is a problem when they are kids. Basically, if you want to start in HR, you have a deadline and a number you need to achieve. Kudos to those that are exceptions to this, but I´m not going to consider 600 square miles of fields just for 3 spikes of saffron as I mentioned earlier. The thing is, that if you want to start as an HR and don´t have a friend or family anywhere (as for most jobs in Slovakia) tough luck to you. Also be careful if you a woman and apply for this position. Many girls are hired here just to fulfill the old dream of a "boss and a sluty secretary scenario" so you can end up with a lot of shit on your plate from emotional and mental damage, to financial problems. Very serious financial problems.

However, if you even want to do your job respectfully, you can´t, as the pressure for deadlines and numbers is just more of a pleasing a boss thing than a "getting-fired" thread.

However, due to vaaastly different lifestyles in this country, HR, or kindergarteners as I like to call them, will basically go by the mantra "we are looking for someone young to create a team" so basically they are expecting to talk with you about hoes, alcohol, hip-hop and shit basically. Mind you I was working from ELEMENTARY SCHOOL  on building sites, had several part-time jobs during my studies and almost never experienced that Californian summer as portrayed everywhere, have gone through a lot of stuff and yet, they will view your job experience as "not enough" as they will never look on a lot of job experience as a hard-worker. Remember, they are here for the numbers.

The problem is also with the West and East parts of Slovakia. Many kids in the east part where tending on the fields every day, went to school and if they wanted to be social, they could go to a club, but by the cost of their sleep. The West kids are a typical movie-starbuckloving-potsmoking-gamer shits that don´t know problems, besides getting a GF or BF and that´s it. And the older folk have even more experienced life as they lost their older siblings to field-work so they could eat during winter. But more on that in part 2.

6. Job scams

Since the Family values Cancer is all around the business, be prepared when you get a job interview, you might going to be interviewed for a job that you didn´t even apply for and even tough luck to you if you are a woman. Yes, being a woman can get you a job more easily here, but at a cost of a "slutty secretary" scenario I mentioned earlier. In one of my part-time jobs, I was interviewing a woman (as a part-timer mind you, because the boss doesn´t give a shit, because of family business values so everybody can do everything) and of course, she was more skilled for the job than I will ever be, well-travelled, lots of years of experience, nuff said. However, she didn´t get the job, because when the bosses girlfriend found out, she didn´t like the fact that she had bigger tits (a 20-year-old, the bosses girlfriend was 35) and I heard that statement verbatim. 

If you are looking for a job online, avoid profesia.sk as the site is full of scam and don´t look for a serious job on facebook here. Only small jobs are somewhat okay. If you are looking for a job online, keep in mind, that you can end up in a job where a manager calls you a faggot, imbecile on a daily basis and the measures you can take are at your cost, so don´t expect it to be it like in Canada or anywhere else in the world.

And don´t believe anybody can get on a junior position and even if the English language is a necessity for a job, don´t believe that, it´s only about the connection.

Recent laws even prevent graduates to move into a different city where they can find a part-time job until they find a real one, as you need to be enlisted in the Office, make maximum of almost  200€ (if you make more, you are fired from the office and you need to pay your health insurance and other things by yourself) and you can work in a part-time only for a maximum of a month. You can thank the older cunts on the Office with their family values crap. Also, not everybody that searches for a job after graduation gets a monthly fee. Also, be prepared that you need to visit the office around the middle of the month in the same time as HR decides to call. It´s usual to get lice from traveling for interviews or some allergies so imagine, or even necrosis handling all tha, but you know #IloveSlovakia 

Part 2 coming soon...

The Day That Never Died...

I wish I could tell you a lie,
how I wish this day would have died,
because when this day happened,
and I had certainly cried,
but this one day
never had died...

I remember how we talked,
under the open sky,
about the things that happened,
that not many survived,
about the meaning of the Philosopher´s stone,
and if it´s just a radioactive ore in an aluminum foil...

About the parable of the Prodigal son,
and how is it about Lucifer thinking he won,
and about the visions, that future may bring,
but that fateful day has a painful sting,
because I realized, I will never wear the ring...

And that day, that should have died,
would become the center of my life...

I was there for you when you attempted suicide,
low on money, not swallowing your pride,
and the things your father had said,
resonated, and we made a plan that paid...

But you viewed me as a brother and nothing more,
my heart is certainly washed up somewhere on the shore...

And I had worked the fields all the summer nights and days,
so some dumb-urban people would have something to say,
I thought  you understand since you were abused,
but since you, every boyfriend colored me used...

...

That fateful day that should have certainly died,
and Lord knows I tried to forget, oh, and how I tried,
but I still remember the sunset next to the moonrise,
how the evening started and the morning was a surprise.

How the summer rain came and went,
but not one dime of silence was spent,
and we realized, that when feminists start to toot their horn,
we will become forgotten, the urchins and the later-born...

And we fought for our generation that was used at the time,
but many were manipulated into the life of crime,
almost as you, as it was so tempting,
to have what everyone has, and now you were getting...

A glimpse of hope was seen with their scream #AllforJan,
and only we knew, he wasn´t the only one,
and even our prez found out he is gay,
but he will not come out as it´s not the Day...

I thought that everything in me had died,
but this Day, only Lord knows what else will survive,
and their scamming agenda for family values,
will strip even women from some of their status...

But since you had left with that Day of a dream,
I worked my way around, to get where I need to be,
and even though this will not end my tries,
it´s time for me to say to it the last goodbye...

As for this day, that never had died,
it´s time for me to bury it, even if it´s alive,
so is the purpose of this poem, or at least it´s its aim,
as on a haunted grave, I hope it stays never looked upon again...

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Essay on the Light and Darkness

Introduction

I´m back after a quite while as I had a busy 2 or so years, so for those who waited for the aforementioned blog on twitter, I lost my research, so I´m doing this topic instead. The reason is mainly that I traveled a lot. I talked to a lot of people, I was involved in a lot of things and had a lot of thoughts, particularly about this topic. I was thinking about this a long time ago but decided to write it down now, for whatever reason that is unclear even to me.

As for my travels, I encountered the phenomenon of cognitive dissonance. Now, if someone mentions this term, you may think that someone is going to talk about how someone or some people, or even the world,  is stupid as this is the usual connotation for this term in a conversation, but I elaborated on this in my mind and got very metaphysical. The point is, that Alice (see previous posts) urged me to write about the immigrants becoming a political power tool (like nukes in the Cold War era but reversed), separation of  Doneck Republic, Annexation of Crimea, Rise of Trump and fall of Clinton, Slovakia´s political straight alliance disguised as an insurance/mortgage scam, fall of the Polish plane with their president, bombing at the Ariana Grande concert before it even happened, but what intrigued me, and it is the main reason I didn´t write about it is, that I was intrigued by the fact of how come nobody saw it coming.

Instead of explaining how come I knew these things would happen, besides my "little birds" (maybe in the discussions, comments, whatever medium is available), I would like to present you my way of thinking and seeing the world. Which is basically an opinion. On the internet. So you know how this will go :D

The Angels and Demons

It is interesting to mention, as this can be used as an example and a bridge to the point of this essay basically, that Slovakia had an increase in the private business sector with Angel therapy, Angelologists, Angel help-divination and so on. This type of niche in the market is quite experimental to my taste as the precursors for this type of business to be successful is there, however, it falls short in the long run. The fact, that Slovakia is religious can be used to set up and invest in a business like this, as many people here are Roman Catholic so the presumption might go, that people would rather have, and be a more trustfull and reoccuring customer to an oracle working with angels rather than to a someone practicing Wicca (which is not widely known in Slovakia, and thus it is viewed as a part of an alternative subulture, batched together with pot-smoking, raving or psychedelic movement, even though Wicca has different branches and most of them are, like some would say, "compatible with the traditionalists", just for your information). However, what managers, business investors or ordinary people may miss is the fact, that the precursor isn´t the fact that Slovakia belongs to the religious belt of Europe. Quite the contrary. 

The religiousness of Slovakia is supported by the fact that after the fall of Austria-Hungary, Slovakia was left with only a strong agricultural industry. This industry requires more attention, even if automated, to be running smoothly. Thus, family values and overall traditional values (as you need people to crop the fields to survive the year and mainly winter, because more children equal´s more work-force and thus decreasing the harvest time of a 50 acres fields which leads to increasing of the size of the fields and so on) get stronger and more embedded in the population more, than artistic and idealistic pursuits, as farming is time-consuming. And since farming is time-consuming, people don´t want to think about whether public breastfeeding is okay or not. They want to have a set of rules of life, given by somebody else, as they don´t have time to find their own way. This seclusive and time-consuming style of life means that traditions get passed more easily from generation to generation over the years which is the source of the Churches power. And these traditions and personal values stay with the generations that don´t even know what wheat looks like without google. 

So for those that want to set up a business around angels need to keep in mind that new-age terms like "find your path, be free, train your gratitude", as people already have those vague rules that can apply on anything from the traditions of church or family they grew up in. When they come for an angel-oracle they want specifics. And this is the cross of the breaking because you cannot make a business on a nation-wide scale if the mentality is on your way, THUS meaning that your business is going to be urban-oriented. Which means you need to reassess your view on what a city is, because if your business functions on an internet and ear-to-ear friendly suggestion marketing, it´s not gonna boom if  you kickstart in a country, where a city is a "settlement" of 50,000-100,000 people aged mainly between 40-80 from a generation that doesn´t use internet on a daily basis like "everyone" does. Besides that, you need to understand that many people live in the villages with population maximum of 500 and thus you may think, that an ear-to-ear, friend-to-friend marketing would be more effective, but with those personal values (that word "regional zeitgeist" I hate to use) you will be mentioned only if you impress those people. And you can impress them with specifics that will make an impressive emotional response from the customer, and not vagueness as is the "make someone feel good" goal, as this type of business is based precisely on this "entertainment", unofficial or/and legal laws. And that´s the full circle.

Please, understand, that what I´m trying to say is not how to set up a business like this or explain how Slovakia became what it is currently, I´m trying to showcase my way of thinking in this supposed era of "post-truth". Just read this explanation again and notice how facts don´t imply each other, but make sense and here is why. 

Perverted Kant, Abandoned Wittgenstein and Cackling Bacon 

What I´m trying to say in the paragraph above is for one to realize, that not the absolute black and white facts are important, but the relationship between them is important, BUT not the logical part, but the contextual part. And by contextual part, I mean how it all came to BE, unbiased as possible, like looking at an Antfarm and understanding the holes and caves they make, without any sense of belonging or interest towards them, just clear observation with deducing the most possible outcomes of the shapes and places of their caves in the soil.

The Crux of this era is the word "truth". And since the USA has a strong marketing presence on the internet, their values are strongly shared and pressed (this isn't going to be an Anti-American propaganda, just explaining my point as you will see further). Since U.S. were created from the colonies, a diversion between the populace occurred by being separated by distances and by "growing up" with different problems, thus leading to the word "truth" being misused as in  "I have mine and you have yours". During their unification, the forefathers saw that this can lead to problems on a political scale, so using force and non-resolving the issues (which some are not even capable of resolving due to the different mentality of some states, stemming from their history) is the ideal easy way to keep things in place. This may seem good, but adding time into the equation, we saw what happened at Berkley, the strong refusal of gun-regulation and such, and it all stems from the secluded way of life from the first colonies when the "tribal mentality" developed, same as in Slovakia, but for different reasons.

As Wittgenstein in his work On Certainty tried to showcase the difference between believing and knowing and ended up showcasing that opinions don´t matter much as the relation to the other opinions in a person´s mind does, as they can trigger a behavior or an act that can not only damage society, but it can derail everything we know into the Brave New World novel given the space and mainly time. This situation in the world lead to Kant´s noumena being perverted to a simple equation feelings=truth same as facts because they´re basically just thoughts in a person´s mind and thus they must be equal on an ontological scale. That is the reason, why I think Bacon must be laughing because he indirectly predicted this whole mess in his New Organon, with his concept of idola fori  being the spark for what had happened; stemming and being supported by idola tribus, which in this day and age of urbanization is being prevalent, thus it focuses market on it and thus we see things like fake news and "10 Disney princess if they were real women" and such. And for me, this is not the "truth" as it brings up unresolved problems from the past.

On Light and Darkness

We are all familiar with concepts of Light and Darkness, Light being the good, the truth, the clarity, the thing we want, the known, the happiness and so on while Darkness is the opposite. If someone would ever present me an option, to choose between the Light and Darkness, I would choose Darkness. Not because of power, but because in Darkness is the truth as it really is. In Light, you can see everything, which is not good. Because in Light a foil from a candy can appear to be like a 5000€ opal from Swarovski until you touch it. In Darkness, you need to be careful not to bump into things and only senses you are left with is touch and hearing. With touch, you experience, perceive the thing as it really is, unbiased, unopinionated and you become curious, as of whether the thing you are holding is going to hurt you or not... but you are curious, maybe fearful, but it´s the drive for curiousness. In Darkness, you are able to recognize the difference after some time of what structured language is being used by a liar and a truth-teller. In Light you can give into their appearances, as people strive for belonging to somewhere/someone. In Darkness, you can not rely on the laziness of the eyes, meaning you know what you see, because that´s how prejudice is spawned, also with opinions. In Darkness, you need to rely on your trust, touch, hearing and applied logic. In Darkness you would understand, that logic is not a path to truth, but a mere Lego™ to get there, so it is important how you use it. In Darkness, you use logic outwards, towards your surroundings, in Light you use it to protect your view and opinions because of your laziness and comfort-zone. Yet people would die without the Light. If I retract from this allegory, Bacon even stated, that the human nature is built in such way, that to say that to truly know something, we must master it, meaning, having the knowledge of the thing sufficient enough to bend it and twist and APPLY IT to OUR WILL, which Rorty hoped isn´t true. That is why people chase the Light in Darkness, failing its tests. Because in Darkness, you truly see, paradoxically, how much you are in your head and how much weight your opinions and prejudices have weight to you because without Light, you can see nothing to support your own belief. In Darkness you gain skills, in Light you gain perspective and together you gain truths that create wisdom. In Light you can have so many perspectives that it can lead to illusions, but applying skills, and repeating that process, you become active and realize, that the truth is really "how the thing is". The real truth is realizing we are human, strapping the perspectives of Light and Dark and focusing on the how something becomes something, and the badness or goodness of the thing. So at the end, there is no such thing as truth as we imagined it. There is only "what happened, what is" and the relation to everything else and that the truth cannot be known, only experienced and be it later as a memory. Understanding this can better your deduction and induction skills, better your research and planning. But it is still only an opinion.

This was my two cents since I didn´t post for a long time, had a free time so I tried to pass it by, writing this. Anyways, thanks for clicking and have good day.

The Painting

A mural brushed by eons on the wall,
from a fairy godmother, a lost call,
bells, dust, and dollars on the waste,
last visitors and no poker face.

But a smile from under the veil,
the mysterious prisoner without a bail,
as a quick spider, weaving its web,
a princess is meaningless for a pleb,

A flower, a rose, a common sense,
the wars of angels are getting tense,
and while you´re waiting with a bouquet,
your lips may lie, but your eyes aren´t okay.

And so a chilling mist couldn't fell,
not for a song disguised as a yell,
thus lower your back, take your poise,
in this orchestra of static noise.

This is not the end, as the wars may come,
the moon is for all, but the stars are for some,
what can I say, I just can not lie,
but for a smile, how many can die?

She painted like a kid with her hands,
the flowers, the dollars, the common sense,
and the visitors came after all,
to pay her and to see her fall...

There´s something wrong with what you had paid for...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOgpdp3lP8M

A whisper

Solemnly night of a soulless fear,
holding to your heart as it is dear,
in a light shining as courage itself,
under the nightly hour of twelve.

No pearls are hiding under that cloak,
there are no apples under elderly oak,
if words of hope are giving you dread,
heart can shiver,  but the soul is dead.

A beautiful ballad of chance and choice,
a harmony of a swan song and poise,
merely an illusive ending for a heart,
will give your soul an ahead of a start.

An internal winter starts a bonfire,
that fuels the heart and it's desire,
and from that, will births the strength,
which you can travel to any length.

When climbing the hill nears it's end,
it's up to you, if you will crack and bend,
instead of worrying if your luck will shift,
be to yourself the most biggest gift.

A dark night always creates the sun,
after the moon ends it's nightly run,
from a cold wind you can have a blister,
or you can take it as a hopeful whisper.

Life is a dance of a soul and it's heart,
where one would end, the other starts,
a snow is a water inspired by sand,
when taking a bow, prepare your stance.

A Dream

A dream has a strange scent, the one that can hide the dark, and when you savor it till the end, it lefts on your soul a beauty mark. I know that love has many shades, so it doesn't seem to be vulnerable, but as a queen of hearts and spades, his gaze became more memorable. But my dream wasn't just a game, even when the north became south, hope and tears came without a name, and it took my breath from my mouth. He stood there, as he tried to be mine, and maybe even stars fell that night, but silent as a little anxious mime, he watched as tears covered my sight. Maybe he liked me a little bit more, with hidden heart, away from the world. How will it be, if he was more sure? ...the dream is now a thought to hold...

Shiny Star

Above the heaven, there is a star, always so shiny, shinning so far, just for a stranger on traveling night, who chose the wisdom over his fright. While everyone sleeps, the star shines, between the trees, on tangled vines, but this star isn't just what it seems, because this star is caring for dreams. She granted the sleep at end of the day, so people will do, what heart has to say, for now this are dreams, just in the head, but one day they'll turn into life instead. And for the Stranger, that refused sleep, because of the fear he holds so deep, he needs no worry, he needs his time, just a search for a peace sold by a dime. A Stranger's not lonely, neither is sad, no need to worry, nothing went bad, for some he's a goon, for some he's in love, but every night he's sending to the Star a dove. It is his thank you to that little dot, which when find, finds us our spot, she sees in to dreams of the hive, patiently writing the poem of life. Some people are grown, some need to be dark, because they're afraid of their own spark...

Sinister moves in Orthodox Catholic Church

           Hi guys. I know, that next topic shoul be about something else, but instead, I decided to invesigate and tell you some news about machinations in the Orthodox church in Slovakia.

Disclaimer: I am going to say it for the last time. If you see a topic that is featuring Alice, keep in mind, that Alice is an fictional character, that was created on purpose to protect my personal life and people I know. Alice was and will be in those topics, which I was investigating and talking about what´s going on in the world, or where I talk about stuff they don´t want you to know. 

Brief introduction:

           The Eastern Orthodox Church,officially called the Orthodox Catholic Church, and also referred to as theOrthodox Church and Orthodoxy, is the second largest Christian church in the world, with an estimated 225–300 million adherents,  primarily in the Balkans, Eastern Europe, and the Middle East. It is the religious affiliation of the majority of the populations of Belarus, Bulgaria, Cyprus, Georgia, Greece, Macedonia, Moldova, Montenegro, Romania, Russia, Serbi, and Ukraine; significant minority populations exist in Bosnia and Herzegovina, Albania, Kazakhstan, Jordan, Palestine, Israel, Lebanon and Syria. The Church's structure is composed of several self-governing ecclesial bodies, each geographically (and often nationally) distinct but unified in theology and worship. Each self-governing body (autocephalous jurisdiction), often but not always encompassing a nation, is shepherded by a Holy Synod whose duty, among other things, is to preserve and teach the apostolic and patristic traditions and related church practices. Like the Catholic Church, Anglican Communion, Assyrian Church of the East, Oriental Orthodoxy and some other churches, Orthodox bishops trace their lineage back to the apostles through the process of apostolic succession. The head of the Church is Patriarch which resides in Russia, and the metropolita is somethin like title of a Cardinal in the Roman Catholic Church.

What´s happening?

           After having lovely, but cold evening with Alice, I was shocked about the news she told, even I don´t

remember that she was wahtsoever talkative like that. She told me few things that need some further investigation, with proper authorities. The news concern about the new metropolita of Slovakia and Czech Republic Rastislav of Orthodox Catholic.  She told me, that the old metropolita Kryštof (Cristopher in english) nominated young Rastislav (which he recieved this name firstly as a bishop) because, Kryštof didn´t expect that he will be voted as a new metropolita, and so he would became a metropolita again. After the voting, he was shocked, and so he started machinations againts him. When he was firstly voted as a bishop, Kryštof, or his sympathizers, tried to discredit him by various means, for example they hided one piece of clothing, essential for consecration in to the office as bishop as so on. There were various statments, that Kryštof had various sinister businesses and so as he isn´t  a metropolita now, he can not control them.

Many tabloids in Slovakia mentioned that Kryštof is againts the new metropolita, but recent findings show that he is even planning to take the new metropolita to the Court. The problem is that the new metrpolita is younger among others, so they initially hey thinked that others would not vote for him, but if so, they might control him. After resoluting speech as a bishop that he would not take advices about managing of his offices, and that he would manage the Church by heart and reason, many got angry. Rastislav stated that he didn´t

even wanted to became a bishop, and also, that if he knew what machinations are included behind the scenes of the Church, he would rather stayed as a monk on Athos (which is monastery in Greece), than even becoming a priest at the first place. Now he tries secretly root out the machinations, which angers some of the indcluded personas, including Kryštof. Needless to say, it is specalutad that at this Sunday, Kryštof may have given some orders, or personally will start other machinations againts the new metropolita Rastislav, because as a tradition, the head of Slovak Republic will be on consecration to the office, which would be in Prešov at the Cathedral of Alexander of Neva. Also it now seems that some personas form the Czech Republic,may not come to this consecration, because they mainly sympatize with the old metropolita, and it may and may not be true, that some of the personas may be connected to the freemason lodge, but this can not be proved, and it is a matter of a conspiration theory. What would happen, time will show. Personally, I´m really excited for the next meeting with Alice.

Can your hands think for themselves?

 

               
            Hi guys. As always, sorry for the delay, I had to do a lot of work with my bachelor thesis, but that´s not important, after few more researches, I decided to let you some thoughts, that you can ponder about for a while.

Brief Introduction:
          So I saw this post from Medical Xpress on the facebook page of Phys.org. It hit me, that this post came after few days after i saw this picture on 9gag. I don´t have the source, since it was long time ago, but you at least you can search google images for yourself. The title stated, that people have to draw exact spot on their body, where they felt the specific emotion they had.

Read the post before you continue reading further.

Brainstorm

          In early philosophy, the distinction between people and animals was to feel emotions. But now modern studies shows, that that may not be true at all. As we know, emotions are chemical reactions, which are responses to some events. Everything happens in our brain, whether we are happy or sad. If we take this research by biology or even by theory of evolution by itself, it seems logical, that emotion concerns some area of our body, whether to defend them or prepare them for attack. But if you think about it further, it may be also a little step towards to understanding conciousness in its basics as it is.

         Not to mention, if take this pictures by the old terms in science from the very old days, this pictures can also depict soul of humans. Because you know, we are atoms studying atoms. We may be naming something or talking about something that may exist, but in different way than we think, or we even understand. But that was just a sidenote. The thing is, that this post can be a spark of hope for the old theory, that our consciousness is not only in our brain. There were some thoughts, which stated that every living cell can think for themselves. If this was too, than that indicates, that our consciousness is collective consciousness of ourselves, it even leads to a thought, that consciousness can be just reacting, or responding cells at any given moment which creates a somewhat ilusion of consciousness, something almost like Hegels Weltgeist, or World spirit, but in biology.

         Philosophers try to find the link between our mind and body for centuries. Do you think this may be true? Can be Shaolin monks a example of this, because of they ability to manipulate they body temperature, heart beating and so on (may be also a hogwash)? What do you think?

See ya next time. :-)

Storm

The time of slumber reached it´s end,                                                      

wake up my soul, the messsage was send,
hear me at midnight, oh, how shall I howl
at the midnight sun the wolves should enroll.

Oh, the sands of time just started flowing
and my wandering heart learned where it is going,
thus my mind has entagled on the one true goal,
this is the beginning of my midnight howl.

Fear me my enemies, ´cause my blood was seeded,
I don´t have fear, when the only hope left is needed.
Enemies! Prepare for the unforseen consequences,
because you are in domain of the grey eminences.

I am not seen, thus I am not conventional,
remember my foes, that I am eminentional.
Forsake your dreams, the storm had arrived,
bent over the knee and swallow your pride.

Sounds of thunder are shaking your lands
and your allies are betraying your hands.
Our everlasting wrath is mighty and stunnig,
you easily forget, that winter is coming.

We swallowed the moon, the sun and stars,
you pray for your lands, but the heavens are ours.
Behold, ´cause our hearts are golden and pure,
and you became nothing, just a prey to lure.

Why we tend to make the same mistakes in politics?

Life thoughts:

Just a thought: Why we tend to make the same mistakes in politics?

               Hi guys. Sorry for delay, but I am currently preparing myself for exams and writing my bachelor tesis, so I had a little time to write something. Somehow I managed to get some time and finish this topic. I recognized lately, that among the youth, there are created two factions. One Stands for communism, the other one stands for capitalism. So I decided, that I should say something about it.

Brief introduction:

               Adam Smith (5 June 1723 OS (16 June 1723 NS) – 17 July 1790) was a Scottish moral philosopher and a pioneer of political economy. One of the key figures of the Scottish Enlightenment, Adam Smith is best known for two classic works: The Theory of Moral Sentiments (1759), and An Inquiry into the Nature and Causes of the Wealth of Nations (1776). The latter, usually abbreviated as The Wealth of Nations, is considered his magnum opus and the first modern work of economics. Smith is cited as the "father of modern economics" and is still among the most influential thinkers in the field of economics today.

Smith studied social philosophy at the University of Glasgow and at Balliol College, Oxford, where he was one of the first students to benefit from scholarships set up by his fellow Glaswegian John Snell. After graduating, he delivered a successful series of public lectures at the University of Edinburgh, leading him to collaborate with David Hume during the Scottish Enlightenment. Smith obtained a professorship at Glasgow teaching moral philosophy, and during this time he wrote and published The Theory of Moral Sentiments. In his later life, he took a tutoring position that allowed him to travel throughout Europe, where he met other intellectual leaders of his day. Smith then returned home and spent the next ten years writing The Wealth of Nations, publishing it in 1776. He died in 1790 at the age of 67. And the most important part, he was the father of capitalism.

              Karl Heinrich Marx (German pronunciation: [kaːɐ̯l ˈhaɪnʀɪç ˈmaːɐ̯ks], 5 May 1818 – 14 March

1883) was a German philosopher, economist, sociologist, historian, journalist, and revolutionary socialist. Marx's work in economics laid the basis for the current understanding of labour and its relation to capital, and has influenced much of subsequent economic thought. He published numerous books during his lifetime, the most notable being The Communist Manifesto (1848) and Das Kapital (1867–1894).

Born into a wealthy middle-class family in Trier in the Prussian Rhineland, Marx studied at the University of Bonn and the University of Berlin, where he became interested in the philosophical ideas of the Young Hegelians. After his studies, he wrote for a radical newspaper in Cologne, and began to work out his theory of dialectical materialism. He moved to Paris in 1843, where he began writing for other radical newspapers and met Fredrick Engels, who would become his lifelong friend and collaborator. In 1849 he was exiled and moved to London together with his wife and children where he continued writing and formulating his theories about social and economic activity. He also campaigned for socialism and became a significant figure in the International Workingmen's Association.

Marx's theories about society, economics and politics – collectively known as Marxism – hold that human societies progress through class struggle: a conflict between an ownership class that controls production and a dispossessed labouring class that provides the labour for production. He called capitalism the "dictatorship of the bourgeoisie," believing it to be run by the wealthy classes for their own benefit; and he predicted that, like previous socioeconomic systems, capitalism produced internal tensions which would lead to its self-destruction and replacement by a new system: socialism. He argued that class antagonisms under capitalism between the bourgeoisie and proletariat would eventuate in the working class' conquest of political power in the form of a dictatorship of the proletariat and eventually establish a classless society, socialism or communism, a society governed by a free association of producers. Along with believing in the inevitability of socialism and communism, Marx actively fought for their implementation, arguing that social theorists and underprivileged people alike should carry out organised revolutionary action to topple capitalism and bring about socio-economic change.

          Marx has been described as one of the most influential figures in human history. Revolutionary socialist governments espousing Marxist concepts took power in a variety of countries in the 20th century, leading to the formation of such socialist states as the Soviet Union in 1922 and the People's Republic of China in 1949. Many labour unions and workers' parties worldwide are influenced by Marxism, while various theoretical variants, such as Leninism, Stalinism, Trotskyism, and Maoism, were developed from them. Marx is typically cited, with Émile Durkheim and Max Weber, as one of the three principal architects of modern social science. The father of communism, ladies and gents.

Conclusion:

           Theory can be nice, but it doesn´t mean anything if the reality is cold-blood different from it. When I see the aftermath of communism, and realize the money behind it, in our everyday reality, it concludes, that communism was just as same as capitalism. I mean that they were parts of something different. I am talking economics here, not conspiracy. You need to look at it as a whole thing, because if we have globalization, let´s use it.

           I am not saying that Marx was wrong, because at the end, it´s the people who take your words, and do them and understand them as they imagine. Theory cannot be infinite, so it can not count with every possible variable, so this is why theory in reality always works different. Because, if theory reaches the regions in reality that can be a negation to her itself, people change it a bit, to get past through this "negation". An example is everybody that is living currently. You have your opinion which is based on some idols, wich F. Bacon stated, and so others people. Generalizing and defining is the problem because it is limiting, and thus creating a changing course of history, politics, economy etc., if applied. You are stating as if you were inserted in the history of comunism, but if you look on it objectively, and by it I mean world, you wold understand that economics were behind it. I am not promoting capitalism, because it also started as a good idea like comunism, and it turn out like this. The problem itself is in human freedom, because by every new person borned in this world, your posibilities rise, but also your responsibilities, and you are more and more "caged" by the freedom of others as they are by yours. For example if you were at that era of birth of comunism, as one from the hard working labors, you will promote it, but if you were a richman, you even won´t think about it. Communism vs Capitalism in their roots, are making many ethical questions, as they opose each other, as for example, is it ethical to take people´s fortune and divided between the people, that didn´t help him to conjured it? Those types of quesions are, as I say "explosive" because they imply thousand of others questions, like for example, "when can you call someone rich and by which conditions?", or, "it is good to crush someones ego, for others to benefit, and if yes, it is good if you decide about others lives?" and so on... You see, these kind of questions have many sites, because you can apply view, and also you need to define many abstract words, like the word "good" itself. Marxism is the kind of philosophy, that was written for only and only one subject (person), that will change itself by Marxist doctrine because of their own free will. If those persons gather together without the others that were againts it, marxism would work perfectly. And that´s why comunnism was created, an unperfect version of the theory that tried to drill trought reality, as I stated above. Btw, that´s how you avoid many ethical questions and have a good society. Yes, I distinguish those two, because as I said, theory and reality doesn´t mix up well. Capitalism gaved free hand to everybody so you can be truly free, but it was poorly constitued, because those that "were in business" for years prevailed those that freshly started (what happened in Slovakia after fall of the comunnist party in 1968), so it wasn´t a fair trade (as speaking of chaning from comunism to capitalism). At the end, the real question is revolving around ego of every individual, separately, not generalized in some sort of "-ism". As Einstein said "Everything is relative", so for every group in country, can be a different "ideal goverment". As you can see, the problem is with the individual, so that´s even why I don´t agree with Hegel´s "world spirit", because it is too much generalized and mechanical as I say. Causality of actions is more like, in my opinion, as something as an arithmetical mean of "butterflies effect" + time, so relying on history has a 50% argumental strenght (because many people here often say, how great time it was during the communist era), because conditions nowdays are different and even if the problem is the same, the "old bandaid" would not fix the problem, because it will cover up lesser and lesser problems everytime you used it, because oportunities evolve and change. If you apply old things, over and over, the progress would stop, and yes living and goverment develops human nature and affects technology and others thing. If capitalism would fall, which it will someday, it needs to be substituted by something new, so we can grow. Look objectively.

              So at the end, the capitalism will fall, but it will change into something new and different, not communism, because every theory is aplicable only on a certain time and space. What do you think?

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Is Chell dead?

Gaming thoughts:

Just a thought: Is Chell dead?

      Hi guys. Sorry for the delay, but I am currently writing my bachelor thesis, and as a "Bad Luck Brian" as I am, my notebook crashed, so I had to take some jobs to buy a new one. My whole school is gone because my HDD on my crashed notebook decided, that it wanted to fuck me up, so it only copied 75% of my files to an external HDD, which didn´t included my 3 years of files from university. So yeah, I am fucked.      But before it crashed, and threw me into an eternal agony, I was playing Portal 2 ... again. Since then, I was thinking, that I maybe had the biggest ephiphany in my whole life. I know there was a theory about this, long time ago, but I think, sadly, that it may be more of a fact than a theory.

Disclaimer: This topic contains spoilers from Portal 2, if you haven´t played yet. ( btw, how can you live with yourself? )

Brief introduction:
      Portal and Portal 2 were created as computer games in Valve were you use a gun, that creates 

wormholes. If you walk trough one hole, you will exit from another, so basically this will give you a hint that this is a puzzle solving game. You are guided by the computer with artificial inteligence named GLaDOS and you as a test subject that´s completing test chambers. I really recomend both games to try, because of storyline they are telling. You play as Chell, main character, that you navigate through test chambers. She doesn´t speak, you don´t know anything about her. You have some information from AIs that tease her, and some considerings from wall murals, but not a single firm fact about her past. And, yes... first part of this Brief introduction, was ctrl+c from my previous blog about the game Portal, because I´m not only fucked, but also lazy.

Valve is waaaaaaaaaaaay more technical

      So I read The Final Hours of Portal 2 and it gave me an impression of a more technical game, and that I had a worng first impression from the storyline. My first impression was that Chell was the cause of realization of GLaDOS, that emotions exists, that Chell was finally free. But after reading the book about making the game, I realized the simple mechanics and morals in Valve. Valve might not say anything about the ending of Portal 2, but it is because they don´t want to dictate what people have to think. They planned for gamers to develop an attachment for companion cube, have that strange feeling for GlaDOS, so in conclusion, they wanted to built a feeling for the gamer, that he actually IS a test subject. And many theories about the ending are build on this feeling. You feel the relieving that the struggle ends. The Turret Opera is the Cherry on the Icing. But try to be an observer for a while, as a third person, outside the facility. With no frustration. 

Valve´s tutorial

       Valve is well-know for their built-in tutorial. In the first game they show you how to place a cube on a button, and this game isn´t different. Even in this game they show you how momentum works and even other basics are explained. The same rule applies for storytelling. Throughout the game you encounter a special turret, that says "I am different.", and starts telling about the myth of Prometheus, the Titan that gave fire to humans, that he stole from Zeus, and thus he gave science to humans. At the end you encounter the turrets, that in an elevator without a portal gun, so you have no place to escape. The odd thing is that they start to play their opera, and at the end, you end up on a field and then companion cube shows up. It seems as a analogy for Greeks view of heaven, when you end up on the fields of Elizeya, acompanied with your best friend, while you hear a choir. Consider the fact that companion cube is incinirated in the first game, and you finally met it at the end of the second game. The companion cube has even it´s own conspiracy around it.

The problem of AI
      We must consider the fact that Gabe Newell saw how cience works, because he studied theoretical physics, before creating Valve. GLaDOS is a AI, and even it is an artificial inteligence, she is bounded to, and around, her main purpose, and that´s testing. She even confesses through out the game that, she has that itch, like Wheatley had, but she surpassed it, because she was "for the science", as she said. She even mentions that she calculated, that there is sixty years of testing ahead. As a inteligence, she has the common sense for survival, and she is capable of lying. Yes, when she is PoTATOS during the game, she says that she litterally has not the energy for lying. But the main fact is, that at the end, she discovers that she is based on Caroline, the secretary of the founder. Then she does some scheming, and at the end, she deletes Caroline (even she has a conspiracy around her, that she is mother of Chell). What if she thinks that purpose of the testing is emotional attachment, and she recalculates that by the new gathered data, she must replace test subjects after every test? What if ATLAS and P-Body are now ment to be destroyed after every test, because of what happenned? What if GLaDOS realized that she needs to apply emotions to her calculations, and she understanded that the principles of emotions are less deterministic, and sometimes more simple? Is she programmed to study consciousness?... and if I may go further... is it a portal testing, or a testing of human basic instincts? Because if it was a portal testing, than why was Chell redacted for tenancy?

The biggest mystery for me is, that if Chell trully escaped, why the song of Turret Opera was about not escaping?

P.S.: Even if she wanted to release Chell, she is an program after all, so she must obey commands that make her. Even more after all, Chell has a file set up as redacted, that´s why she wants to, well, have to kill her.

Conclusion:
Yeah... pretty much... like this:

... but if you search up the Portal comics, one of them depics that turrets, can sing, because, they were ment as something like a "Guaridng angel for infants"... so they sing a song if they detect crying... so there is a new theory, that Chell at the end might realized, who GLaDOS was, and the turrets singed because they detected tears on her face... btw, the purpose to create a deadly lulababy for protection, gives a new insight in the Half-life backround... Valve is king of trolls, so who knows, why they created a comics like this.

See ya next time ;)

What ancient gods have had given us?

Life thoughts:

Just a thought: What ancient gods have had given us?

            Hi guys. So I had written this topic, but after I met few people, that were interested in this kind of stuff, they helped me rewrite some parts of it. Generally this topic, would ponder about the essence of human nature, because at the beginnings of time, humans weren´t overflood by information, so mainly what they said was crossovers of subjective thinking of theirs, that could change the next generations... or isn´t it vice versa ? Let´s have a brief look on pantheons of some ancient cultures:

Anthropological gods... or the Big Greece party SHAMONE:

           As you can see at first sigh, The ancient Greece, or the Hellens, had gods that were rulling over

one thing at the time. It could be a some atribute from the nature or of a individual, but things also got complex over time, so let´s start at the beginning. At first, the ancient greeks didn´t have a single male figure as a god. They worshipped their gods by hanging sacrifices on trees, which represented them. You know, every god was a symbol for something so they didn´t believe in them as something real but transcendental. For example, one of the real ancient god, was Artemis,the goddes of nature and hunting, so they hang bows on her tree (I cannot remember which one was it) to please her, and give her favour to them. It is also believed that at the beggining of time, there was only one god, worshiped around the whole world known as Mother Nature. Single woman figure as a god. But times had changed and some woman figures developed masculine characterisitics, that over time transgendered them. 

             Keep in mind that they didn´t know about the world so well, so they were left on their own. So the whole pantheon can be taken as a generalized response of an indvidual to the world around them. They were aware of things what can do, so giving a nature atribute a human personality (which transforms into a body in every their allegory , later myth) is why they had gods like they had. They internal view was more like a free human being, which can choose what side of his can develop, and by then he can enter the hierarchy, which was created later. It was created because they realized that human being can have many sites, and by the style of life they had, it was necessary for them. Or as they thinked. The problems began when politics and economics got involved. Due to this point, the mythology was something like a personal development, but as everybody is a human, that lives in a society, the pantheon can not handle the hierarchy of society, because it could be destructive to it.

            Also it is true that they started to think that they can explain the whole world in this terms, but they weren´t aware of things that many scientist and philosophers had discovered later about subject itself, that is basically "we, the ones behind our eyes".

             It is known that Greek philosophy started from their mythology, many philosophers tried to find this breaking point, but at the end, they started to agreeing that it was just a continual spectrum that leaded to thinking. I think, the best view about how ancient Greeks understand their gods, was presented by Friedrich Nietszche. Basically he in his work The Birth of Tragedy based on his view on mythology of ancient greeks. He states that there are two principles (generally, not only in mythlogy of ancient Greece) which are Apollonian and Dionysian. Apollo represents harmony, progress, clarity and logic, whereas Dionysus represents disorder, intoxication, emotion and ecstasy. They fight between each other in every (but not only) in human being, and thus making everything alive. Pretty much explanation why there is hierarchy in their mythology.

The "X-men" from Egypt
         

               So as you can "feel" from the previous part, the geographical mentality is a huge deal, even this day. Ancient Egyptians that lived on the sand and only water was mainly form the Nile, created pantheon at first that resemble to their needs, as in other politics. But here, the gods are something like archetypes of each person that can be. That´s why some of them had heads of animal, because their body was a symbol of what they represented, but with a huge difference, because their body also described the mythos, axiology and ethics behind them.
                 But throghout time, they changed their things about them, so we can say that the thinking, and they, as a symbol, developed. That´s the reason why "The Great Nine" and the "The Great Eight" should be understand differently and should be not put together as a comparison by any means. Yes, they have some same gods in them, but they aren´t what they were before. This concept was taken by Greece and mixed up to their mythology, and because of trade, politics and economy, they were even created "mutants" that could be used for diplomacy. Everybody agrees taht Greek mythology was a ground for European philosophy, but at the end, Egyptians also have their part in it. Even the father of philosophy in Europe, Thales, and many others, firstly studied in the Libraries of Alexandria, before they started to preach. Lastly, it can make you an impresion, that Egyptians loved to stereotype, but they tried to develop every side of a character of a person 100% focusing on it, and not looking on anything else. That leaded to gods, that ended up as a "point of view" on the world.

The Irish Garden
                    Comparing greek mythology with the irish one is like an allegory for diversification in

evolution. They both started with tree worshiping, but greeks instead, used trees as first altars for their gods. Irish were people of nature, andeven though they had their god figures, they show respect to nature in general. They set up their panteons with basics they respect, and then developed them. Every important happening in their mythology has something to do with trees. While in greece, trees later became just an atribute, the irish understanding in trees survived and even made into the Churches of northen countries by little. The trees have their significance also in other northern countries, like in Nordsmen, but Irish have the most tree-centered mythology the whole time. They had even hierarchy for them. The basics they settled for their pantheon was based on the life of individual, the tool he most used, so it wasn´t somethin trascendental and generalized like in others mythologies. I really recomend the book from Fred Hageneder, Ghost of trees. 

Conclusion:
                    Lastly, for example, chinese mythology should by understand by heart not brain. They

live in a dangerous place, so they reflect on things that by them truly matter. It can give you snese of logic, but the best understanding can be achieved by heart and kindness. What is point of all of this? It´s not about the gods, or if they are good and bad, but it´s about thinking f early humans and their understanding. We often tell something to people, but it´s a mix of our opinion, mental state in the time, and also facts, so our conversations on daily basis are not pure, which makes a new insight on the paradox of liar. So gods give us thins that we have in ourselves all the time. No wonder that Hinu tale of great wisdom and ultimate true states, that it is hidden in us. But who wants to carefully dig into themself, while not destructing the empire of oursleves?